obsession

Posting back

2009-09-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

What's the use of saying how I feel? Nothing would change anyway. If it does change, they would lose their happiness. I don't want that to happen - I love them too much.

It's just I get so damn tired of saying that I'm doing fine. I can't stand myself being the emotional one all the time. I guess, this is what happens when one hides her feelings for so long. Come to think about it, I've only ever told about it once with a friend. It's not like he's going to love me back and leave her - not that I want that to happen - if I say these things now.

What's the use? They're already so happy in each other's arms. I shouldn't be selfish. They've waited for this to happen for a long time too.

Though I get hurt everytime I see them. And everytime I do, I have to constantly remind myself to be happy - I have to be.

IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLEASE GIVE ME SPACE.
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU BOTH.
"If you truly love a person, you will always love them no matter the outcome."

the note from under the mat

2009-04-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

it just struck me after i turned off my notebook...
i wrote it on a piece of paper so i wouldn't forget...

"...and then i realized that the reason i would stay there the whole day was because i wanted to keep you company just in case you decided to stop by. - but you never came. I didn't want you to feel all alone and left out, but it never bothered you at all that i was the one being left out..."

you keep on forgetting that i exist. i don't matter at all.

I wish I could find someone who would long for my presence just as much as I long for theirs. I wish I had someone who'd say he misses me and really mean it."

i'm angry yet i can't blame you... just because my world revolves around you, doesn't mean that yours revolves around me too...

i'm sorry about this, just give me some more time... i do admit my heart hasn't matured yet. i'm still being selfish. please be patient. i'll out grow this, i promise. i just hope i won't out grow you..."

2009-04-27T03:19:00.003+08:00

the clock on my computer says 3:19 am but i still don't feel sleepy at all. i'm so angry and confused right now. i can't even put up the mask i usual wear and pretend that everything's alright.

i know i don't have the right to get mad, but i just can't stop it. i wish people would just tell me straight if they don't want me hanging around them. i wish people would just tell me how horrible i look instead of making me think that i'm not half as bad as i think i am. i wish they would just tell me to give up on them because there's no use of hanging on, to hope that there can be an 'us'. i wish people would stop lying to me. my heart isn't that strong to bear all these false pretenses.

i have nothing left and no one to run to. everything's just messed up. it's the same set of problems all over again: the boy, my friendship.

what's ironic about this is that it all boils down to me being at fault. i let myself be in this kind of relationship. i was stupid enough to believe that such a person, so kind and 'true', could exist. i gave in to hope again. i forgot that reality matters more to me than ideals. let me go back to how i was.

heto ako ngayon, bato.

masama bang ma-miss kita?

2009-04-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

masama din bang ma-miss mo ko?? hindi ko kasi maramdaman eh. para ngang ayaw mo ko kasama - kung ganito lang din naman, paki sabi nalang sakin ng deretso para hindi ako nagmumukhang tanga kakahabol sa'yo

matamaan ka sana
sana alam mong pinariringgan kita
sana nga hindi ka talaga manhid, at nagpapanggap ka lang na hindi mo alam - mas gugustuhin ko pa yun

mahal kita, hindi mo ba alam yun? pag ba nakaya kong sabihin sa'yo 'to ng personal, masasabi mo din kaya sakin to? o tama yung hinala ko na iba nga ang mahal mo

long nights

2009-04-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

i feel that lately i've been demanding too much out of life -no, actually i don't want to lie about how i feel. I think that life hasn't been giving me enough at all. i have not been a horrible person so i know i deserve better in love and friendship and everything in between.

i know to myself that i am being selfish. i just want what is rightfully mine. i've worked so hard to have this kind of relationship with the people i am currently with and i will not stand for anything that can ruin that.

again with the 'I's, - it's just that I can't help but look out for myself once in a while, after all, i know that i have been giving

[details, after na namin mag-usap]

2009-04-17T02:31:00.001+08:00

angelpauline21: going back ahaha
je.delosreyes: tae, qng ipis ba nmn pinaguusapan natin
je.delosreyes: eh di ang daling sumagot diba
je.delosreyes: ;))
angelpauline21: LOL =))
angelpauline21: sana pag mgkasama tyo willing ka din mgkwnto ahaha
je.delosreyes: qng tungkol s ipis, oo naman
je.delosreyes: ;)
je.delosreyes: ;))
angelpauline21: LOL =))
angelpauline21: itatago ba natin sya sa pangalang ipis? ahaha
je.delosreyes: ahaha
je.delosreyes: hindi no!
je.delosreyes: =))
je.delosreyes: unan na nga sya, unan!
angelpauline21: kawawa nmn kung ipis ang codename ahaha
je.delosreyes: :p
angelpauline21: haha
angelpauline21: oo na UNAN na
angelpauline21: naforward mo ba s knya yung message sa PILLOW? :D
je.delosreyes: wah
je.delosreyes: uu
je.delosreyes: di tinamaan
je.delosreyes: hehe
je.delosreyes: manhid nga, manhid
angelpauline21: send to many ba? ahaha
je.delosreyes: uu naman
je.delosreyes: buti pa ung iba, nagreply
angelpauline21: haha
angelpauline21: hnd nagreply yung UNAN mo?
je.delosreyes: ndi eh
je.delosreyes: busit
angelpauline21: w
angelpauline21: aaw
angelpauline21: bgay mo number skin :)
je.delosreyes: ahaha
angelpauline21: for sure magrereply na yun ahaha
je.delosreyes: ASA
je.delosreyes: khit nga si matt ni number, ni pangalan ng unan ko.. ndi alam eh
je.delosreyes: :p
je.delosreyes: eh. HE KNOWS
angelpauline21: ahahaha
angelpauline21: i could know better naman eh ahahahahaa :))
angelpauline21: try me :D
je.delosreyes: hahaha
je.delosreyes: i don't think so
je.delosreyes: :p
angelpauline21: :P
je.delosreyes: buti naiintindihan mo pa ko eh no..?? sa dami ng mga nilealeave-out ko na details ;))
je.delosreyes: pero parang napaka-readable q nmn eh
je.delosreyes: hehehe
angelpauline21: NAMAN :D
angelpauline21: sobrang maunawain ako noh :D
je.delosreyes: haha
angelpauline21: kaya kht di ka mgbgay ng details naiintindhan kta ahha
je.delosreyes: ahaha
je.delosreyes: pag kasi may mga binanggit aq, manghihina ako eh
je.delosreyes: haha
angelpauline21: asus
angelpauline21: mag-vit ka ksi ahaha
je.delosreyes: nagvi-vit ako!
je.delosreyes: haha
angelpauline21: kung may pics ka nya, tititgan mo nlng sgurado mabubuhayan ka na ng bonggang bongga =))
angelpauline21: hahahahaha
je.delosreyes: wah
je.delosreyes: hehe
je.delosreyes: nalulungkot aq pag nkikita q pix nya
je.delosreyes: hehe
je.delosreyes: lalo aqng pinanghihinaan ng loob
je.delosreyes: hehe
angelpauline21: ay bkt naman?
je.delosreyes: auhw...
je.delosreyes: eh kasi nga ndi nmn aq gus2 nya
angelpauline21: may iba syang gusto/
angelpauline21: ?
je.delosreyes: ...
je.delosreyes: uu
angelpauline21: aw
angelpauline21: may idea ka kung sino yung girl na gusto nya?
je.delosreyes: meron
angelpauline21: aw ukt
angelpauline21: *ult
je.delosreyes: ayan na, bumabaliktad n mood ko.. hehe
je.delosreyes: may specific na tao bang nirerepresent c tunay mo?
angelpauline21: meron syempre! :D
angelpauline21: hnd ko lang alam kung nasan. :D
je.delosreyes: wah??
angelpauline21: pinagdadasal ko pa sya. :)
je.delosreyes: ndi q gets...
je.delosreyes: ang ibig q kasi sbihin...
je.delosreyes: isa ba sya sa mga kakilala mo
je.delosreyes: i mean qng nameet m n sya
angelpauline21: i still don't know
je.delosreyes: oh. ideal guy plang ang iniisip mo...
je.delosreyes: as in, idea palang sya
je.delosreyes: ???
angelpauline21: ideal yun, yung right term :)
je.delosreyes: naguguluhan ako
je.delosreyes: ahhhh
angelpauline21: sana magkatotoo sya sa taong makikilala ko o kilala ko na. :D hnd sa taong napalampas ko na. :) gets mo ba? :)
je.delosreyes: uu
je.delosreyes: auhw..
angelpauline21: ksi ayoko nmn na dumating yung time na marealize kong si tunay pala ay hnd ko napansin along the way kaya nalagpasan lang namin ang isa't isa
je.delosreyes: sana ganyan din mag-isip ung unan ko...
je.delosreyes: sana di nya q palampasin
je.delosreyes: kaso baka ang TUNAY nya..
je.delosreyes: ung gus2 nia ngaun eh
je.delosreyes: kaya, di rin aq pwedeng magreact
angelpauline21: kaya si TUNAY ko sisiguraduhin kong magtatagpo kami sa tamang panahon at pagkakataon. :D
je.delosreyes: auhw
je.delosreyes:
je.delosreyes: pano?
angelpauline21: pagdadasal ko at ska si God na bahala dun syempre :)
angelpauline21: parang pwede dn ito i-post sa blogsite mo ahaha
angelpauline21: anu sa palagay mo? LOL
je.delosreyes: ahaha
je.delosreyes: parinig ba yan??
je.delosreyes: cge.. w8
angelpauline21: suggestion actually :))
angelpauline21: teka pahabain nmn natin muna
angelpauline21: ok... going back. :)

bakit hanggang ngayon

2009-04-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

mag-isa parin ako

sorry

2009-04-13T13:04:00.001+08:00

this is my fault...
the problem is with me
i have issues and am still a bit immature

i'll fix this, i promise

blog it all out

2009-03-22T20:40:00.001+08:00

i hate the fact that everytime i think we're ok - that we're doing better - you leave me behind. when you intentionally disregard my presence, and act like i don't exist at all
T_T
i hate this

i never learn

2009-02-25T00:47:00.004+08:00

i know that everytime i come back to that place, i would see you two cuddling up with each other. my heart can't take anymore - but it's the same heart that tells me to go back just so that i could see your face. and to see hers, my friend. the both of you, happy. i should be too.

it seems no matter what i do

2009-02-23T03:10:00.000+08:00

it tears my heart in two

emo-day

2009-02-17T00:32:00.001+08:00

how can i go on with my life if i keep on obsessing about every boy i fall in-love with? it's awful that i love too much, and don't get loved back at all

lady

2009-02-14T02:18:00.002+08:00

you are my friend and i love you, but he is my friend too and i love him just the same - no i love him more than anything. but i prioritize things differently than most people. i value friendship more than my feelings. i love you friend, and he loves you. you are so lucky, you have his heart. i wish someday i could have his heart for myself, or maybe just forget about my feelings for him.

i got so scared when you got into a bad mood that day - i had a feeling a part of the reason for that was my doing. i would never try to hurt you on purpose, friend, it's just that i was having the time of my life with him. i'm sorry. i couldn't stop myself. i didn't want to because I knew I wouldn't be able to have that chance again. i am sorry if i really was part of the reason you got mad. i really am.

I just can't have you find out

2009-02-06T14:28:00.004+08:00

Usted significa tanto más que un amigo a mí, pero a usted no puede verme más allá de eso. Usted no puede ver más allá de nuestra amistad. Deseo que usted podría apenas mirarme la misma manera que usted la mira. Y no puedo incluso decirle que esto, yo no puede incluso escribir esto en mi blog en una lengua que se pueda entender por nuestros amigos. No puedo tenerlos descubrir sobre mis sensaciones para usted. Tengo que guardar esto un secreto, una mentira. Deseo que usted me ame la misma manera que le hago.

~~Spanish is so easy to read (in the back of my mind, I am hoping you would find out)~~

is in no need of self-help books

2009-02-06T14:08:00.003+08:00

A lot of self-help books have been out in bookstores lately. I googled a list of the most famous of these and settled with not mentioning them here anymore.

I do not want to read these "Self-Help" books. I believe that people have problems that are different from others', no matter how similar they may seem. A person will never get wiser if he does not give his own solution to his problems, and instead, consult with the solutions that others have come up with. I am not saying that these books are bad -they're not, I'm just saying I don't like reading them.

"Papunta ka palang, pabalik na ko"
"Sino ba nagsabing ung pinuntahan mo, yun din ang pupuntahan ko?!"

"I Just Don't Love You No More"

2009-02-05T17:27:00.002+08:00

Need I say more? I just don't feel the same way about you. I think the 6 years of hiding didn't do my heart any good - I got so tired already. You wore my heart out. And now you're asking me back...

If you must know, there IS someone else. - someone else I'm permitting to break my heart. You see, he's almost just like you. He doesn't see me as anything beyond a friend. And once again, I'm letting myself go crazy over him because he's just so perfect. I'm hoping that I would get to make him love me. He's an awesome guy, you know?

Now, I write this here because I know I'll never have the guts to tell you this. This shall be my little secret - one that would only get exposed to you only if you go to my blog, which you never do. I'm confident you won't get to read this. The lie shall continue. And because of the common flaw you both have, you won't even see through me, your both insensitive. And I leave it at that.

it's hard to blog

2009-01-26T21:32:00.002+08:00

Don't you just agree? I mean, you have a lot of thoughts in your head throughout the day and just swear you're going to blog about them as soon as you're infront of your computer. but when you actually get there, all the thoughts just seem to go someplace else. You can't remember the points you wanted to discuss, and the sentences you've perfectly constructed when the thought occured in your head.

Okay so I'll try to blog about the thoughts I had earlier today, and hopefully I'll remember the important parts:

1. I woke up today wearing that usual sando-shorts-pairing. I was not sure if I was going to smile when I opened my eyes, I just got out from a dream. In it, I was at an I.T. Conference with my friends from Adamson (weird) and I was talking to one of my friends - I can't recall who it was. I was not being too noisy, I was barely even whispering when Sir Rejan Tadeo took hold of the microphone and started making snide remarks. He was not saying it directly to me, but he sure was talking about me! He was saying something about impoliteness - and he was definitely eyeing me while he was talking about talking while someone is presenting infront! I was sooooo embarassed! haha!

Then I woke up. I didn't really think about the dream much when I got up. I had my usual morning episode. I usually have that on Monday and Wednesday mornings, I can't seem to get a hold of myself. I get sad for no reason, and think of all sorts of negative things. Once again, I am not being emo! It just happens, I don't know why - it's not like I want it to happen. I pray to God everytime to help me overcome it - and He does! I love my God!

2. Before I got finished getting ready for school, when I passed by the altar and saw His face - I was doing better. His wonders are just, incorrigible. So I left home and immediately rode the first bus to Manila. I forgot what I was listening to on the iPod but it definitely made me feel better - I think it was a Rascal Flatts song. Anyways, while we were in traffic (is that how you say it?), I then thought about my dream and sent my daily GMs to all my friends, including a short message on the dream. I really just had to put that in! Of course Sir Tadeo was one of the people who sent a reply - his usual retorts! Typical! haha! Rovy sent in a message or two. Joanne also, but she was just annoyed (not seriously) I forgot to put her name on the list of the people I said Good Morning to. XD Sorry about that :D

3. I got to my class early so my Intfilo prof still wasn't there. Broke the news in another GM. Replies from Gwaps, Jlo and Ron.
In class:
Ms. Velasco: "this is the reason why I LOVE life... the reason why I LOVE DEATH... the reason why I LOVE LOVE" while we were discussing on how complex explaining something is, "Yang LOVE (in her conyo-impersonating accent) na yan, akala mo pacriter-criteria ka pa? Pag natamaan ka nyan, kahit tatlo pa mata nyan, pucha!" And she ended her sentence. Nothing else had to be said, we get her! I find her amusing, it's like she can express herself in a breeze - I envy her charisma and her speaking-skills. And yes, she DOES "GET ACROSS".

4. I got to my Compro2 class, the only memorable thing about it was the phrase (was it even a phrase?) "nuninuninu"! That was so hilarious! Had the usual fightS with Matt and Axel and left class.

5. The boys took me to my next class on the fourth floor, and after a few minutes, started with my Kaspil2 class.

That was basically my day. The usual, sad-happy-sad-okay day

Wow, I can't believe I was able to fill the page to this part, but I am sure there are a lot of things I missed out on

A Few Days After

2009-01-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

I find myself, yet again, in this horrible state. Ever so often, an unstoppable gush of loneliness - an understatement, at that - comes over me. It hits me unpredictably, and every single time, worse than the previous episode.

I am not alone, if you say that I am surrounded by over a hundred classmates every term. I am not alone if you say that I live with my family. But this is not how I picture myself as being with someone.

I am using the word "alone" in its most simple meaning. I am not using the words "forlorn" nor "desolate" to amplify what I am speaking of. I do not know, honestly, if I am just being squeamish about this feeling. It's like I can't stand to be like this even though there is nothing to worry about.

I am scared of being too clingy, though I have reason to believe that I am being one, that I might drive my friends away - especially the ones I've grown rather fond of recently. I do try to give them space - but it is all rather hard for me to do so - believe me, I do.

And here I am again, head filled with all the thoughts I can't put into writing. I am aware of the fact that a blog is supposed to be made public, but these thoughts will just have to stay in my head. My blog is my bestfriend - to whom I tell my secrets to - but even bestfriends tell secrets.

THE LIE is growing even bigger everyday. It is controllable, yes, but I do not want to take over it. It protects my friendship - and I'd really just rather have it that way. Though there are times when I would really just love to tell about it to someone. Oh the things I would do.

To tell you the truth, this lie (I find that phrase amusing) is really hurting me badly. I have to continuously be someone, rather, be in something that I'm not. It's just that, the way I see it, if I keep this up there might be a chance for me to forget what I've been trying to hide.

2009-01-19T23:54:00.001+08:00

A lesson learned from my IntFilo class this afternoon

HOW TO STOP A WAR
The story goes like this:
An apprentice goes to his Zen master and asks "How do you stop a war?"
The master, looks at his apprentice and slaps his hand across his face.
The apprentice, being the perseverant lad that he was & knowing that his master was giving him his answer already, asked the same question all over again " How do you stop a war?"
His master then slaps his face for the second time.
Puzzled, but unsatisfied with the answer, the apprentice asks for the third time, "Master, how do you stop a war?"
Predictably, his master slapped his face, and the young apprentice understood, smiled and stopped.
EXACTLY.

ONE BIG LIE

2009-01-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

this is how i'd rather have it. i will continue to lie - i have to - i don't want to hurt my friends. even though it's really hard, i can't tell anyone about it. i have to keep it to myself, i have to protect their feelings. i don't know how long I'll be able to keep up with this but i'll be strong for friendship's sake. i wish i could tell someone about my big lie.

Part 1

2009-01-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

Today I was scared to go to class - I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to catch up with everything we were about to discuss. Honestly, when I enrolled my classes for this term, I was (and still am) having doubts on whether I would pass or not. Currently, I have afternoon classes on Intfilo (Introduction to Philosophy), Compro2 (Computer Programming), and Kaspil2 (Kasaysayan ng Pilipinas) on Mondays and Wednesdays. I also have a Tuesday-Thursday morning-class on Ccscal1 (Calculus for CCS Students) and a Network class on Saturday mornings.

The problem(s):

Intfilo: Philosophy was a breeze for me when I took it up in Nursing school. Our professor was a funny guy who was also good in teaching - he wasn't bad at all! He made students who failed his quizzes perform in front of the class, so the only problem I had back then was trying not fail ANY quiz - and I didn't, mind you. I can't really say that I only passed because of my shame of having to perform, but because I understood the lessons. The point here is, I COULD understand the lessons. Okay, so when I got to Lasalle, I had to take Intfilo because it didn't have the same course description as that of my previous one. I wasn't really bothered by it back then because, afterall, I did do well in class. Then as three terms passed, of course, I got to hear a lot of subject insights from a couple of classmates on how their professors were and how they were graded - and one of them was Intfilo. I heard that Intfilo was interesting - you would get to question almost everything under the sun and just about anything you have in your mind that's been bogging you. That was good, then when I heard about the kind of professors we were to have - well, let's just say that I got discouraged. Basically, the professors were (ARE) REALLY REALLY GOOD - but they were (ARE) too good, they could shatter everything you believe in with their lessons, even your faith. So far, that was what I've heard.

Compro2: Compro2 is one of the core subjects of the my whole stay in Lasalle as a Computer Science student. The MPs are definitely going to be stressful, as well as the three major exams of course. Compared to the C Programming Language lessons I've had in Adamson, I think the ones I have currently is far more complicated. Really. There's also the part were I really really want to do good on my majors. I'm scared of not getting how a function works or something I won't get to pass as a requirement, and then it would affect the rest of my term! Ha!

Kaspil2: There are two things - TRANSFORMATIVE LEARNING and PAPER WORKS, lots and lots of paper work.

CCSCAL1: Originally, I didn't have to take my CCSCAL1 anymore since my CALCULUS from Adamson was creditted already. So my initial problem before the beginning of this term was, what would happen if the lessons I learned from the 5-unit CALCULUS were too general for my lessons on CCSCAL2. I did enroll for a CCSCAL2 this term, I got to the class last Thursday, and my initial problem became THE PROBLEM indeed! So I decided to drop CCSCAL2 and went to the Vice Dean to ask permission to take CCSCAL1 instead.

Network: I had absolutely no idea if it was enough that the only major subjects I had finished were BASICON and COMPRO1

random rantings and a whole lot of complaints

2009-01-05T01:11:00.002+08:00

a BIG "MIND YOU", this is my blog and i just want to give my OPINION on the matter

[random]

okay, so people who've been with me for quite a while know that i don't really FAVOR the emo-lot. and oftentimes, because of the YM stat messages i post, i get asked if i'm one of them- a question i would always answer with the same reaction.

it's just that i find it rather irrational - their behavior, that is - to think that the whole world is on their shoulders when there are people out there who have worse problems than they do. REALLY. anyways, there are a lot more things on how i think about this lot but i'd rather be saying them out loud than put them into blogging.

[random]

another reason that i don't like the emo thing is because everytime i try to talk with a friend about a problem, it's like it automatically translates that i'm being emo. it's like you can't have problems anymore and not be associated with this thing...

okay, i should have wrote this post in tagalog, because i can really just relate to the Philippine-setting where most of the "emo"s are, TO ME, just a bunch of posers.

[random]
ha! my post's turning into hate-post... i better stop here

hopefully

2009-01-03T01:52:00.002+08:00

things will turn out the way i want them to be - it sounds selfish but i can't stop myself from wishing this

i've been a good girl - lovewise - but it seems that in the end, i don't get the guy after all.. i wonder if i'm doing something wrong.. my 6-year dilemma has been over for quite a few months now, and the guy who got me over him, doesn't seem as interested in me as i thought he was.. am i really that horrible of a person? do i not deserve to be in a relationship

i am aware that i'm barely over 19 and that i'm still in school, and it's like i'm taking things too fast - but does that mean that i won't be able to prioritize things properly? does that translate to me not being able to control myself with what should and what shouldn't be done. i know myself well enough to say that i'm responsible - that i'd be able to maintain my grades and everything i have currently

it's been over a year now since i first met him, and we've made no progress at all. i mean, the way we treat each other has not changed - although i do know that we are better friends now - but my feelings for him HAS, DRASTICALLY..

so hopefully 2009 will be a better year
and hopefully i'll be a better person

STILL

2009-01-02T01:04:00.001+08:00

Do you have a crush on someone?
Yes

Do you talk to him/her everyday?
almost - by talk, i mean "chat"

Do you talk about them to your friends?
Yes

Does your crush like you?
NO T_T

Do you think about him/her?
often

How long have you liked your crush?
about one year now

Is your crush handsome/beautiful?
awefully handsome

Do you dream about your crush?
once in a while

Do you like hearing their voice?
yes

Do you like recieving text messages from her?
YES!

Do you like their laugh/giggles?
so so

When you see them, are you shy?
no

One day will you be with him/her?
hopefully

If you could tell them how you felt about him/her, would you?
no, unless mauna sya

Do you have pictures of your crush?
A LOT

Do you get jealous when he/she talks to the opposite sex?
yes

Are you comfortable around your crush?
Yes! super.

What do you think about his/her clothing style?
he dresses well, not too flashy and not too simple

Will you wait for him/her, to be yours?
STILL

on a private note

2008-12-26T16:43:00.002+08:00

It's December 26, this is the time every year that I "FIX" - not count, the money I've received from my relatives and family friends.. and everytime I see the envelope given by my grandparents, i get sad.. not because of how much I see inside the envelope - i DON'T COUNT, mind you - but because of their continuous effort to give us something every christmas... This year's envelope says "Merry Recession Christmas".. auhw.. I mean, it's alright Lolo & Lola if you don't give me anything at all, you need the money more than I do. i love my sweet sweet lolo and lola!

merry christmas to all!

year-end post

2008-12-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

after several months, i've finally had the chance to open my blog and post a new entry.
of course, a lot has happened over time that i was out.

some things that are currently AND often stuck in my head lately:
1. the possibility that i may become a dean's lister - this is a big deal to me not because of the high grade 'factor', but because of the DSLR i'll be getting if i do become a DL. I'm having a bit of a problem with this though, because of a certain "theology" class where my professor's a complete ass!

2. get-togethers with my friends from adamson. it's almost a year since i transferred to DLSU, but i still can't see myself as a lasallian. it's just that the guys from adamson are WAY better people (mind you, this is just my opinion - and i do tell this to my lasallian friends). they seem more 'real' to me. a LOT funnier.

3. my guy #2, obviously i'm over the OLD-guy-of-my-life for almost three months now. too bad for me, he had to be REPLACED.. i mean.. i would have done better, if i had just totally forgotten about him for no apparent reason, rather than finding another guy to fall head-over-heals on. guy#2 is really nice, we share the same talents and interests - he's just, well, PERFECT. problem is, he's not into me - just like everyone else is soooo not into me. i still haven't gotten used to the fact that guys don't get attracted to someone like me. what's worse about the 'thing' i have for guy#2 is that, i think, he's into one of my friends... so i can't atest to that, i mean, THEY ARE my friends... so i just have to wait for guy#3 to come, i guess.. this sucks

4. gifts!!! christmas is almost here and i still haven't gotten gifts for my friends.. i really really want to give everyone who's close to me something special for christmas. at first i was thinking of maybe drawing them on the computer, but there's just darn too many of them to finish.

5. guy#2.. damn i'm still thinking of him T_T

6. by this time, you'd realize that there isn't that many things i think about.. i rarely think XD

7. my EMO friends.. i have these two emo-couple-friends who keep on fighting... it just really sucks because I KNOW they love each other more than anything else.. the emo-thing is just getting in their way... i hope they fix this soon

that's it for now.. ciao

THE COLLEGE CYCLE.

2008-04-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Every New Trimester:

After First Week:

After Second Week:

Before the Mid-Term Test:

During the Mid-Term Test:

After the Mid-Term Test:

Before the Final Exams:

Once Get to Know the Final Exam Schedule:

7 Days Before the Final Exam:

6 Days Before the Final Exam:

5 Days Before the Final Exam:

4 Days Before the Final Exam:

3 Days Before the Final Exam:

2 Days Before the Final Exam:

1 Day Before the Final Exam:

The Night Before the Final Exam:

1 Hour Before the Final Exam:

During the Final Exam:

Once Walked Out From the Examination Hall:

After the Final Exam, During the Holiday:

//ang dami na nagpost nito kaya nakigaya na lang ako..

haha! stolen from evryone who posted this.. nyahahaha

ganitong ganito talaga ako, saktong sakto... tsk tsk...

ang sarap nga dagdagan.. course card day at nalaman mo na 1.0 ka sa isang subject na hirap na hirap ka... yeah!

Wishlist (UPDATED) - woohoo!

2008-02-13T08:49:00.001+08:00

~~Laptop! (HP Pavillion dv2315nr Entertainment Notebook PC)~~
~~Mag-enroll sa Lasalle~~
~~Yonex NanoSpeed 9000~~
~~Sony PSP Slim and Lite~~
~~Graphic/Pen tablet~~
~~Asus EEE PC~~
~~Hotwheels (5s)~~
Nissan Skyline GTR BNR34 Tshirt
~~Enzo Ferrari (Shell Collectibles)~~
F430 (Shell Collectibles)
575 Superamerica (Shell Collectibles)
360 Spider (Shell Collectibles)
F50 (Shell Collectibles)
Ferrari F1 racer (Shell Collectibles)
~~Makuha ung 2008 Starbucks Planner~~

Sana lahat ng lalake ganito

2008-01-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

This is one of my conversations with a friend. I met him back in Adamson, like me, he was also a member of the webteam.. Meet my friend JM, i call him gwaps... This is the second time he has helped me, as in really helped me! i love telling him my problems, because he knows of one solution that would surely work! :) cheers to you gwaps!

Jane (10:29 PM): magkwento ka naman!!!

JM (10:29 PM): ano kkwento ko? hehehe

Jane (10:30 PM): khit ano.. d k na ata madalas gumala ngaun?!

JM (10:30 PM): di na
JM (10:30 PM): lam mo nmn di nmn tlga ko pala gala

Jane (10:30 PM): RIGHT...

JM (10:31 PM): bahay --> skul ----> library(ma2log) --> bahay
JM (10:31 PM): lng ako

Jane (10:31 PM): hhhmmmm! chorva!
Jane (10:31 PM): d raw

JM (10:31 PM): d tlga ko mahilig gumala
JM (10:31 PM): ikaw..nkkgala ka na ngayon d b?
JM (10:31 PM): free ka na

Jane (10:32 PM): anong free n ko?

JM (10:33 PM): di ka na nkakulong s rum u

Jane (10:34 PM): ah... medyo nadagdagan.. home-->school-->STARBUCKS--->school--->home
Jane (10:34 PM): hehe

JM (10:34 PM): hehehe
JM (10:34 PM): bat mas masarap sa coffee bean?

Jane (10:34 PM): HANO?
Jane (10:35 PM): i guess dpende qng anong coffee ung inoorder...

JM (10:35 PM): coffee bean > starbucks
JM (10:35 PM): huwow..

Jane (10:35 PM): NO! STARBUCKS conquers coffee bean
Jane (10:35 PM): !!!

JM (10:35 PM): no no no no
JM (10:36 PM): COFFEE BEAN WINS!
JM (10:36 PM): hek hek Xp

Jane (10:36 PM): i beg to differ!
Jane (10:38 PM): starbucks coffee is made with LOVE
Jane (10:38 PM): hehe

JM (10:38 PM): huwow
JM (10:39 PM): coffee bean coffee can heal a broken heart.. HIYESSS!

Jane (10:40 PM): HIYESS!
Jane (10:40 PM): makapunta nga don!
Jane (10:40 PM): hehe

JM (10:41 PM): huwow! broken hearted ka ba?

Jane (10:41 PM): oo naman no
Jane (10:41 PM): hehe!

JM (10:41 PM): hala! di ko lam un ah! bakit? anong kwento nun?

Jane (10:42 PM): mahabang kwento, coz it goes way back 3rd yr HS
Jane (10:42 PM): ang solusyon: manlalaki! wahehe!

JM (10:42 PM): hala!
JM (10:42 PM): its been years
JM (10:42 PM): di ka parin naka moveon?

Jane (10:43 PM): di eh, pano nmn kc makaka-move on, skin kc, if i want 2 muv on, i need 2 find sum1 to replace him
Jane (10:43 PM): drama no
Jane (10:43 PM): hehe

JM (10:43 PM): ehem...
JM (10:43 PM): di nmn mdrama
JM (10:43 PM): replacement?

Jane (10:43 PM): sort of
Jane (10:44 PM): pero i don't really want to think of it that way

JM (10:44 PM): pede namn sgro sa ibang bagay eh...
JM (10:44 PM): i mean pede ka magfocus sa iba mo pang priority para makalimutan mo xa

Jane (10:44 PM): believe me, i tried

JM (10:44 PM): maraming bagay na masiportante sa kanya
JM (10:44 PM): mahirap tlga un
JM (10:45 PM): pero its been years..ako naniniwala na time heals
JM (10:45 PM): mdalas nakdepende ang buhay ng tao sa mind set nito or world view

Jane (10:45 PM): then sana it would heal my heart fast, kc medjo matagal n rin to eh, qng

may sugat tlga to, bka may blood clot na ko

JM (10:46 PM): tingin mo ba nkktulong seu ung ganyang mindset?>
JM (10:46 PM): na u need someone na kpalit para mkmove on?
JM (10:46 PM): hehehe
JM (10:46 PM): tapos meron NANA
JM (10:46 PM): lumalbas ung train at pari

Jane (10:46 PM): QUE BABOY
Jane (10:46 PM): UMALIS NGA AKO SA NURSING!

JM (10:47 PM): hehehe
JM (10:47 PM): baka di mo lng napapatawad ung sarili mo or ung guy

Jane (10:47 PM): i don't h8 him actually

JM (10:47 PM): hatred or bitterness can take you further than you think you can go..
JM (10:48 PM): kala mo hanggang dun lng ung sakit

Jane (10:48 PM): i h8 the fact na alm ko nang nasasaktan aq pero ayw q bumitaw

JM (10:48 PM): pero parang seed un na tutubo
JM (10:48 PM): love u pa ba?

Jane (10:48 PM): nya?

JM (10:49 PM): sya

Jane (10:49 PM): oo

JM (10:50 PM): huwow
JM (10:50 PM): ang tagal na nun

Jane (10:50 PM): grabe nga eh

JM (10:50 PM): meron pa kau communication?

Jane (10:51 PM): uhm... i try not to lose our communication, pero he doesn't reply... he's not being mean, i think he just had enough

JM (10:51 PM): tlga

Jane (10:51 PM): actually we never were an 'item'

JM (10:52 PM): oh?

Jane (10:52 PM): 3rd-4th yr kc, ksma ko sya s badminton
Jane (10:52 PM): super close kmi, closer kmi kesa s knila nung GF nya

JM (10:52 PM): bestfriend

Jane (10:53 PM): sabi nya bestfriends daw kmi, pero khit un, hindi ko man lang mafeel ngaun
Jane (10:53 PM): i had to graduate, then soonafter, 'sinundan' nya DAW ako dun s san juan de dios

JM (10:53 PM): bakit? iba ba tritment nya?

Jane (10:54 PM): magulo kc sya eh... or assuming lang ako maxado... sweet kasi eh
Jane (10:54 PM): i'm a complete sucker for sweet guys

JM (10:54 PM): ahhh
JM (10:54 PM): kaya nagfall ka sa knya
JM (10:54 PM): do you think namisinterpret mo ung pinapakita nya?

Jane (10:54 PM): nung umpisa, ganun nga ata eh
Jane (10:55 PM): then nung 2nd year ako, 1st year xa.. iba na ung trato nya sakin

JM (10:55 PM): tlga
JM (10:55 PM): tulad?

Jane (10:55 PM): well.. sweet na xa tlga, ung totoo na... he and his GF broke up a couple of months bago sya maggraduate ng HS...
Jane (10:56 PM): then aun na.. hell days na

JM (10:56 PM): hell days tlga

Jane (10:56 PM): super sweet sya for a certain period.. then bigla nalang ndi ko na nakita...
Jane (10:56 PM): then may nagsabi sakin na may niligawan daw siya
Jane (10:56 PM): so super depressed ako nun
JM (10:57 PM): tlga
JM (10:57 PM): sakit ung un..
Jane (10:57 PM): i even went way over than just depressed...
Jane (10:57 PM): na nung nalaman nung friend ko
JM (10:58 PM): ...
Jane (10:58 PM): nagdala sya ng baseball bat, almost susugurin nya na si jonas sa galit
Jane (10:58 PM): and nakakagulat kasi ung friend ko n un, lahat binebefriend

JM (10:58 PM): jonas ung name ng lalake?

Jane (10:58 PM): wala na.. nadulas na.. hehe

JM (10:58 PM): hehehe

Jane (10:59 PM): nagagalit din kc aq.. hehe

JM (10:59 PM): ano nman nkkgulat dun?
JM (10:59 PM): adik

Jane (10:59 PM): kc... alm mo ung tipo ng tao na napakafriendly tiaka makulit.. gnun kc ung friend ko na un, c kuya bugoy... tpos ibang klase ung galit nya kay jonas.. hanggang ngayon
Jane (11:01 PM): to make the long story short, umamin si jonas sa kin na 'mahal nya daw ako'.. then.. lumipat ako sa adamson, tpos nging cold n sya sakin

JM (11:01 PM): hmmm
JM (11:02 PM): bakit kaya
JM (11:02 PM): so kelan lng un

Jane (11:02 PM): that was about two years ago
Jane (11:02 PM): when i asked him this: "sbihin mo nlng kc qng
minahal mo tlga ko, or kaya mo lang ginwa un kc naawa ka lang skin"
(nagulat lahat ng tao sa sinbi ko n toh)

JM (11:03 PM): maraming tao nung sinabi mo un?

Jane (11:03 PM): uhm nope... nung tinanong lang nila

JM (11:04 PM): huwow
JM (11:04 PM): nsabi ko na ba seu na i never had a gf since birth..'

Jane (11:04 PM): really?
Jane (11:05 PM): bkt nmn?

JM (11:05 PM): hehehe isa sa dahilan ko..baka kasi meron ako masktan na babae..tapos masayang lng ung relationship, time, effort

Jane (11:05 PM): hay naku, gwaps kung lahat lang ng lalake kpareho mo magisip

JM (11:05 PM): pero mrami pa din ako dahilan kung bakit ngdecide ako wala muna commitment

Jane (11:05 PM): honestly ang sweet nmn nung cnbi mo

JM (11:06 PM): mron pa nman siguro dyan
JM (11:06 PM): na ano?

Jane (11:06 PM): baka kasi meron ako masktan na babae
Jane (11:06 PM): ngaun lang aq nakarinig ng ganyan

JM (11:06 PM): unga..
JM (11:06 PM): i really respect lahat ng mga babae

Jane (11:06 PM): auhw.. hehe

JM (11:06 PM): walang panget
JM (11:07 PM): di lng marunong magayos at umayos
JM (11:07 PM): hehehe

Jane (11:07 PM): s tingin ko naman, i don't think u could hurt a woman, s lagay mong

yan.. na conscious k s feelings ng iba.. so that's nice

JM (11:08 PM): di ko pa alam..pero gusto ko kasi sigurado na
JM (11:08 PM): i mean..di kasi ako naghahanap ng maggf
JM (11:08 PM): im looking for my wife to be

Jane (11:08 PM): wow!

JM (11:08 PM): ngek!

Jane (11:08 PM): ndi i mean.. really.. wow!
Jane (11:08 PM): ndi ung 'wow' n wow lng

JM (11:09 PM): i realized it nung high skul pa ko...tapos nagkataon di pa ko ngkkgf
JM (11:09 PM): tlga? first mo ba mkrining ng ganitong conviction
JM (11:09 PM): ?
JM (11:09 PM): hmmm..

Jane (11:09 PM): honestly, yeah

JM (11:09 PM): pero nung inopen ko to sa 2 kong pang kaibigan

Jane (11:09 PM): coz mostly ang nririnig ko mga problems ng magbf/gf eh
Jane (11:10 PM): ano daw?

JM (11:10 PM): nagcommit sila na wala munang gf until we graduate
JM (11:10 PM): dami nga din lumalapit sakin na me ganong problema
JM (11:10 PM): lam mo we can compare ung bf/gf relationship sa pizza

Jane (11:10 PM): r u sure na compsci ka?

JM (11:11 PM): wen ever we have a commitment we give a slice of it
JM (11:11 PM): until nothing is left
JM (11:11 PM): tapos
JM (11:11 PM): kapag ngkaron ka pa ng relationsip

Jane (11:11 PM): i'm listening

JM (11:11 PM): kala mo meron ka pang naiibibigay
JM (11:11 PM): un pala wala na..naubos..
JM (11:12 PM): pero di ba iba ung pakiramdam na una mo kinain ung pizza? ung unang slice masakit pa nga sa panga sa sarap eh
JM (11:12 PM): hehehe

Jane (11:12 PM): hehe.. love the last line

JM (11:12 PM): tapos magnda pa dun..2 lang kayong maghahati dun sa buong pizza..walang agawan..SULIT!!!

JM (11:12 PM): do you get my point?

Jane (11:13 PM): okay so now i'm going to ask you, sure ka bang gus2 mong magcompsci?
Jane (11:13 PM): y didn't u just take philosophy or sumthing

JM (11:13 PM): huwow!
JM (11:13 PM): bakit mo nmn ntanong un?

Jane (11:13 PM): wla lng... gno b kalaki ang utak mo at napagkakasya mu yang mga ganyang thoughts s utak mo?

JM (11:13 PM): nageenjoy nmn ako sa course ko..
JM (11:14 PM): hala!
JM (11:14 PM): sigro di ko lng kasi inisip yan..sinabuhay ko kasi
JM (11:14 PM): napakahalaga para sakin ung gnong relationship
JM (11:14 PM): sacred ba ung sa ingles?
JM (11:14 PM): hehehe

Jane (11:15 PM): hehe

JM (11:15 PM): pero it doesnt mean na blank un emotions ko \
JM (11:15 PM): pagdating dun
JM (11:15 PM): nagkkgusto din ako
JM (11:15 PM): kaso i have to check kung ready na ba tlga ko
JM (11:15 PM): or susundin ko nlng ung gsto ko tapos sa dulo..
JM (11:16 PM): wala din..di ko pa naachieve ung gusto ko mangyari

Jane (11:16 PM): alm mo as much as i want to think that way, and i really do, ndi ko lang tlga mapigilan eh... i tried everything kaso wala tlga

JM (11:16 PM): kala mo lng u've tried everything
JM (11:17 PM): if thats your problem..then merong solution dyan
JM (11:17 PM): walang ggwa ng lock na walang susi

Jane (11:17 PM): i know what you mean
Jane (11:17 PM): BIG SMILE

JM (11:17 PM): sigro kaylangan mo lng hanapin ung susi
JM (11:17 PM): tama ba ko?
JM (11:17 PM): meron ba point?

Jane (11:17 PM): once again, touche

JM (11:18 PM): gusto k mkapagmove on ka na
JM (11:18 PM): lam mo bahala na ang Lord pumili ng babae para sakin
JM (11:18 PM): mas kilala nya ko
JM (11:18 PM): pero kapag mga 30 at wla pa kong asawa
JM (11:19 PM): hehehe
JM (11:19 PM): 22lungan ko na maghanap ang Lord..

Jane (11:19 PM): ahehehe!
Jane (11:19 PM): "mas kilala nya ko" o gosh, i really think you should have taken a different course

JM (11:20 PM): hala?!

Jane (11:20 PM): napapasmile ako
Jane (11:20 PM): hehehe

JM (11:21 PM): lam ko masmalupet ung taste ng Lord..bibigyan nya ba ko ng ok lng? syempre ung best..pero kapag ako pumili baka mafrustrate lng ako..
JM (11:21 PM): d b?

Jane (11:22 PM): alm mo hindi lang ako nakasmile ngaun, BIG GRIN
Jane (11:22 PM):
Jane (11:22 PM): ang galeng
Jane (11:22 PM): ibang level k tlga!

JM (11:22 PM): tlga..
JM (11:22 PM): d din..
JM (11:22 PM): dami k pa kulang

Jane (11:22 PM): pero ibang lvl k prin

JM (11:22 PM): minsan eengot engot padin ako..
JM (11:23 PM): pero di pa kasi tapos ang Lord sakin

Jane (11:23 PM): iba parin ung wisdom, dpt alm mu yan no
Jane (11:23 PM): really
Jane (11:23 PM): seriously
Jane (11:23 PM): truthfully
Jane (11:23 PM): honestly
Jane (11:23 PM): maniwala ka, ibang lvl k tlga
Jane (11:23 PM):

JM (11:23 PM): ganon din sayo! di pa tapos ang Lord...just keep in touch w/ the Lord..and He will reveal wisdom na di mo akalain na ma222nan mo

Jane (11:25 PM): sa ngaun, nakakadalawa ka na!

JM (11:25 PM): thanks, pero sa Lord lng lahat ng glory...siguro kung di ko sya nkilala...walang kwenta na buhay ko.. i mean i would wonder kung ano ba tlga ung reason bakit ako nbubuhay
JM (11:25 PM): dalawa?

Jane (11:25 PM): two.. hehe
Jane (11:25 PM):

JM (11:26 PM): onga noh

Jane (11:26 PM): hehe
Jane (11:26 PM): i mean...
Jane (11:26 PM): pangalawang beses na tong u've knocked some sense into me

JM (11:27 PM): sana nk2long tlga ko

Jane (11:27 PM): anong sana?!

JM (11:27 PM): u would feel a desire to change or hope na pwede nga mabgo ung crcmstances

Jane (11:27 PM): alm mo lht nung masakit na nararamdaman ko kanina, nwala

JM (11:27 PM): pero i would not happen kapag di ka tlga ngdecide
JM (11:27 PM): hehehe
JM (11:28 PM): u should decide and be determine to change and move on

Jane (11:28 PM): pwede bang iblog 2ng conv. ntin n toh?

JM (11:28 PM): desire, decide and be determin...kaya mo yan.. i believe kaya mo yan...ask help din sa Lord
JM (11:28 PM): hehehe
JM (11:28 PM): sige
JM (11:29 PM): remind m ung sarili mo kapag nkklimot ka na..hehehe

Jane (11:29 PM): medjo nakalimot nga ako, then pinaalala mo lang ulit, so ok na
Jane (11:29 PM):

JM (11:29 PM): hehehe
JM (11:30 PM): kaps..
JM (11:30 PM): i need 2 sleep na
JM (11:30 PM): class pa ko tom

Jane (11:30 PM): ah ok..GOODNIGHT
Jane (11:30 PM): SUPERMEGA THANKYOU TALAGA
Jane (11:30 PM): as in super
Jane (11:30 PM): super talaga

JM (11:30 PM): likewise for listening sa mga paniniwala ko..
JM (11:31 PM): glad 2 help
JM (11:31 PM): God bless
JM (11:31 PM): pahinga ka na din maga

Jane (11:31 PM): next time ulit ah
Jane (11:31 PM): same to you
Jane (11:31 PM): GWAPS
Jane (11:31 PM): !
Jane (11:31 PM): isang apir muna!

JM (11:31 PM): sige
JM (11:31 PM): apir

Jane (11:31 PM): w8 w8 w8 d q n nmn mhnp!

JM (11:32 PM): hahahaha

Jane (11:32 PM): wag kang aalis, magaapir lng aq
Jane (11:32 PM): !!!
Jane (11:32 PM): w8 lng!
Jane (11:32 PM): aun aun!
Jane (11:32 PM):
Jane (11:32 PM): ayan ok na!
Jane (11:32 PM): gnyt
Jane (11:32 PM):
Jane (11:32 PM):

JM (11:32 PM): oki
JM (11:32 PM): gnyt

List (UPDATED)

2008-01-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

~~Mag-enroll sa Lasalle~~
~~Yonex NanoSpeed 9000~~
~~Sony PSP Slim and Lite~~
~~Graphic/Pen tablet~~
~~Asus EEE PC~~
~~Hotwheels (5s)~~
Nissan Skyline GTR BNR34 Tshirt
~~Enzo Ferrari (Shell Collectibles)~~
F430 (Shell Collectibles)
575 Superamerica (Shell Collectibles)
360 Spider (Shell Collectibles)
F50 (Shell Collectibles)
Ferrari F1 racer (Shell Collectibles)
~~Makuha ung 2008 Starbucks Planner~~

Thanks, by the way

2008-01-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

I would like to express my ever sincerest gratitude to the people who have never appreciated the things I have done for them. To those, who saw me every time they needed something from me. To the people who only knew I existed whenever they wanted something they knew I could provide. To the friends whom I never got a simple 'thank you' from, from the smallest favors to the most hefty demands they asked of me - instead, I received only snide remarks and foul criticism. To all those who got angry at me whenever I had to say 'no' because I had no other choice. Thank you also to those who continually require me to do things for them that are of their most interest.

And now I ask of simple requests, so simple that they wouldn't even take half an hour of their time. I asked a lot of them, I received nothing, not even one.

The feeling is back again, I guess.

Taken for granted - this is what most people call it.

It's a shame that I didn't recognize it earlier. I have been a victim of this back in highschool. Back then, I would let a certain guy sweet-talk me into providing for him small things. I am now, once again, a victim.

Maybe it's just the feeling of being wanted that makes me ignore all of these issues. That even for a short while, people need me - in this case, my resources. And I wouldn't even give a damn if it would cost me much, just so that I can make them pleased at me.

Thank you.

List

2007-12-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

Mag-enroll sa Lasalle
~~Yonex NanoSpeed 9000~~
~~Sony PSP Slim and Lite~~
~~Graphic/Pen tablet~~
~~Asus EEE PC~~
~~Hotwheels (5s)~~
Nissan Skyline GTR BNR34 Tshirt
~~Enzo Ferrari (Shell Collectibles)~~
F430 (Shell Collectibles)
575 Superamerica (Shell Collectibles)
360 Spider (Shell Collectibles)
F50 (Shell Collectibles)
Ferrari F1 racer (Shell Collectibles)
Makuha ung 2008 Starbucks Planner

BLESSING

2007-12-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

I thank God for giving me this wonderful gift, it has been quite a nice week for me. He has guided me through out the way, when I get accepted, all my work will be for Him. If I don't, then I believe that He has better plans for me.

loko un ah!

2007-12-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

so kanina na-interview na ko ng vice dean ng CCS.... okay naman, simple lang ung mga tanong, simple lang din naman ung mga sagot ko... english ngalang (ayaw na nga matanggal ng dugo sa panyo ko eh) madadali lang ung mga tanong, kasi halos puro mga personal na tanong lang naman. medyo relaxed na ko nung kalagitnaan kasi nga nagtatawanan na kami nung vice dean, aba, bigla ba namang bumanat ng 'what is a program?'! kaloka kaya yun! madali kung sa madali ang tanong na to, pero kung dumaan kang - katulad ko - sa sobrang pagkakakaba at tensyon, eh hindi magandang biro ang pagtanong ng ganyan! ehehe! in fairness nasagot ko naman sya base sa 'natutunan' ko sa ITC sa adamson, tulala ngalang ako ng mga ilang sandali! natandaan ko pa nga napa-'puta!' ako sa utak ko eh! pero nasagot ko promise! medyo nawindang lang ako at biglang nag-iba ung klase ng tanong! hehe! pero ok naman! sana tanggap na, tatawag nalang daw sila eh... sana nga masabi ko na nang tuluyan ang 'animo lasalle!'... hehe! :D

i feel so angry

2007-12-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

alam mo naman kung anong meron kaming klase nang hindi pagkakaintindihan, sisingit ka pa! inaayos ko na nga eh! hindi tayo naging close, pero i respected you - i even treated you as a friend! how could you do this to me? hindi mo na ko nirespeto! alam na alam ng section nyo storya namin, tapos nilandi mo pa siya! hindi ako maganda, pero ikaw din naman miss! wag kang lumandi nang basta basta, naninira ka ng buhay e!

jealous

2007-12-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

"hoy...mei itatanong ako...bkt d ko kau naki2ta n papa jonas mu n mgksma?...
nakakapanibago ha..miz yah!.:)"

i added this friend of jonas almost a year ago not knowing that she could do my heart so much harm. she saved only three 'featured friends', the first one is jonas, the second and third are her first and second year class profiles... she posts lots of comments on jonas' profile, but the one that intrigued me the most was the one with a 'Sorry for Hurting you...' image...

now the comment i quoted in the first line was one that i saw on her profile, given to her by one of her second year classmates..

i must admit that i am ONCE AGAIN jealous

still grieving over my exam

2007-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

1.How old will you be in 13 months?
~! 19

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
~! no

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
~! A passing entrance exam result

5 . Who was the last person to text
you?
~! karla

6. Do you prefer call or text?
~! text

7. Do you have any pets?
~! tss

8. What were you doing at 12 am last night ?
~! watching Natl Geographic....

9 . Do you like carrots?
~! no

10. When is the last time you saw your
mom?
~! just now

12 . How many houses have you lived in?
~! 2??

13 . How many city/towns have you lived
in?
~! 1!

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare
feet:
~! shoes

15 . Are you a social person?
~! idk

16 . What was the last thing you ate?
~! CS donut(s)

17 . What is your favorite color?
~! Black, green, white, brown (IS?!)

18. What are you doing for your next
birthday?
~! idk

19. What is your favorite TV show?
~! dami eh

20 . What kind of jelly do you like on
your PB & J sandwich?
~! strawberry

21 . Do you like coffee?
~! HELL YEAH

24. What are you listening to?
~! kelly clarkson

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of
the bed?
~! nope

26. Do you know how to play poker?
~! dati

27. What are you thinking about right
now?
~! *crickets*

28 . Any plans for this weekend?
~! ...

33. Have you ever been in an
ambulance?
~! no

34. Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
~! pool

37 . What is your favorite thing to
spend money on?
~! Gadgets

38 . Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
~! no

41. Who is the funniest person you
know?
~! david spade... hehe

42 . Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
~! no

44 . What is the main ring tone on your
phone?
~! i haven't heard my phone's ring tone 4 quite a while now, it's usually on 'vibrate'

46 . What is the color of your bedroom
walls?
~! white and blue

47 . Do you shut off the water while
you brush your teeth?
~! no.. tsk tsk tsk

48. Do you wish someone was with you
right now?
~! ...

49. Are you mad about anything?
~! at myself! coz i screwed my freakin' entrance exam!

50. Are you taken or single?
~! single..

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2007-12-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

1.)Anong song ang last na pinatugtog mo?
February Song - Josh Groban

2.) San ka galing knina?
- sa kama

3.)Sino ang iniisip mo ngayon?
- ...

4.)Happy ka ba ngayon?
- no.. i still feel awful coz of that stupid exam i took last thursday

5.) Kamusta naman ang love life moh?
- the same way it has been for five years

6.)Mabilis ka bang magsawa?
- sa ano? depende

7.) Gusto mo bang makipagteleb abad sa telephone?
- depende sa kausap

8.) Sinu ksama mo ngayon?
- sa kwarto, wala.. nasa kabilang kwarto si ate, tapos si mama tiaka c dad nasa baba

9.) Pagod ka ba ngayon?
-nakakapagod matulog

10.) Napagalitan ka ba ngayon?
- mejo lang

11.)Umiyak ka ba kanina?
- no

12.) Mahilig ka ba sa gifts?
- bibigyan mo ko?!

13.) Anong gusto mong gawin ngayon?
- pumunta sa _______ at dayain ung exam ko!

14.) Umiinom ka ba ng mga alcoholic drinks?
- nope

15.) Anong mas gusto mo, makulit o pasaway?
- ??

16.) Malambing o mataray?
- malambing :)

17.)Anong fave mong drink pag may party?
- PEPSI!

18.) Adik ka ba sa siopao?
- kay edhz?? di ah!

19.) Anong feeling mo pag may kausap ka sa phone?
- feeling?? makati tenga ko! haha

20.) Anong iniisip mo ngayon?
- hanggang kelan kaya diretcho tong buhok ko

21.) Anong feeling mo ngayong oras?
- bored

22.)Mahilig ka ba sa mga remembrance?
- oo, pero wala nmng nagbibigay e.. promise.. wala.. ako gumagawa ng sarili kong remembrance

23.)Anong ginagawa mo ngayon?
- kachat ko si gwaps

24.) Kumain ka na ba ng dinner?
- steak tiaka chiz curls! yummy!

25 .)Anong huli mong pinanood sa TV?
- my wife and kids

26.) Ano ang pinakamalaking misconception sayo ng mga tao?
- malaki daw ako, hindi naman ah! hehe! mataray...

27.) Bakit kelangan masaktan 2wing magmamahal?
- fuck you!

I need a miracle

2007-12-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I won't get to study at La Salle after all.. This so depressing.. :( Gosh, I was sooo ready to study there. I was so excited! Where am I going to study now...? Geez! Things didn't turn out the way I expected them to be... It'll probably take some time for me to get over this. Cheer me up please. :(

Asus Eee PC

2007-12-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

dahil sa isang taong itatago nalang natin sa pangalang *AJA! LAPUS* :D gus2 ko ngayon nito! nakita ko to sa moa eh, gusto ko tuloy ibenta ung PSP ko.. huhuhu.. offers anyone??

New blog coming up...

2007-11-29T17:13:00.000+08:00

I'm putting up another blog, on WordPress. I guess with this one, I'm sticking to all my personal stuff - which I know is pretty boring. I still haven't got a clue on what to put up in my WordPress blog, but I will keep it active. I will make it public so I do hope I'd get a lot of visitors there.

Just click on the title of this post to get to my WordPress blog.

DIE BITCH DIE!

2007-11-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

'janes'... my name with an 's'... bitches like you shouldn't exist! back off! akin lang siya you should be thankful i haven't seen you in person yet. iba nalang ang landiin mo, wag na sya! puh-lease!! T_T

computer graphix - update: IV

2007-11-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

i am starting on another CG drawing.. i'm trying to do kenshin, from the only anime i have ever really watched, samurai x! ...okay so i can't really do the face yet, but in time, i will... it's really hard... mostly because of the eyes... i want to draw the eyes anime-ish, not real-life... it's hard to draw the eyes because of the details. mind you i am not using a graphics tablet so it really is hard to draw using the brush of photoshop, and having to move it with only a 3-yr old mouse... if you haven't yet used photoshop (which i totally doubt), imagine having to draw on MS Paint using its brush/pencil... the only good thing, for me, on photoshop are the other tools like smudge, blur, dodge and burn.. i do hope i'd be able to draw the face, if not superbly-superb, at least somewhat... decent!

so half of the screen is black.. and half is white... i'm having second thoughts on which color to use... no actually i won't really be using plain just black/white as a background... it'll either be a light or a dark background.. i haven't made up my mind yet... what do you think is better?... comments on the drawing... what would you like to see? err.. do you think i should stick with kenshin's usual gi(is it called a gi??) color?

this is what i've done so far

12:30... 3rd part...

almost done... i just have to clean up some parts... add a background... do some finishing touches.. hope i'd get to make this look good!

BORED

2007-11-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

as some of you may have known already, i did not enroll at adamson this semester. i'm still waiting for my december 5 exam, and if luckily i'd pass, i would still have to wait for january to go back to school. i'm getting tired of my room already, i never thought that i would feel this way about my room! so here's what i've been up to lately...

***photos can be viewed on my multiply

BUHAY SI JOMAR SALCEDO!

2007-11-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

yes! lol

THANK YOU

2007-11-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

c=
SMILE

List 20 things you want to say to certain people but know you never will. Don't say who they are.

2007-11-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

1. mahal pa rin kita, i'm happy na medyo nagiging maayos na tayo ngayon, sana tuloy-tuloy na to (obvious ba kung sino to?!)

2. change is good, pero too much of anything's not... i feel like i don't know you anymore, WE need the old you back

3. you're one of my closest friends, but why is it that every time we talk to each other you can't refrain from giving me sarcastic remarks?

4. the reason i don't do good in anything is because YOU don't believe i can do them

5. i really like you and if you'd only like me back then maybe i'd finally forget about #1

6. are you sure you love him, or have you just mistaken love for lust

7. if you don't want to go, tell us honestly

8. i still know you're online even when you go on Invisible Mode

9. i'm not his girlfriend, neither are you,. we're more tight than you two are! i've known him since highschool, i know his house - i can even go there and go inside with notice. he has already asked me to dance with him and did just so. we share almost all the same interests! how about you?

10. i don't have anything against you liking emo music and clothes, what i don't like is you cutting yourself and when i ask you why, you tell me it's because of problems that almost everyone experiences. i really do think you're just over reacting and you just want attention.

11. thank you for fighting for me. i WILL really miss you when you leave, i have never had anyone who almost passes for a brother to me. love you... don't forget my hug c=

12. i'm amazed at how you manage to get to cool yourself down all the time. it's like nothing breaks your spirit, and i envy that. i hope i'd find a lot more people just like you. i know you have problems, who doesn't? and if in case you didn't notice, i have been here and will always be here to listen to you.

13. help me get him back, you know i need him

14. it's hard for me to believe the things you say, you know

15. STOP FLOODING THE DAMN FRIENDSTER BULLETIN BOARD

16. (i want to say one more thing to #9) BACK OFF, HE'S MINE - or so i think he is

17. i'm sorry i offended you, sometimes i just really can't control the things i say. so sorry about that.

18. don't be such a hater.

19. (to #1 again) #11 loathes you because of what you did to my heart

20. THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU ALONE! why do you even feel that everyone's just out to get you?!

WARNING: naglalabas ako ng sama ng loob sa post na to, so baka ma-bored lang kayo, wag niyo na basahin.. seriously...

2007-11-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

last week, ang sabi, mag-aapply na daw ako sa la salle... ngayon naman, mag-eenroll daw ako sa adamson! nakakainis na talaga! BOBO BA KO?! bakit ba sa tuwing makikita nila ang grades ko, wala silang ibang alam gawin kundi laitin yun, "1.5" ang lowest ko! 90!? 90 na yun! wala nang ibang lumabas sa mga bibig nila kundi 'aba, pano kaya nangyari yun?', 'malamang 1.2 ka jan, nung summer mo kinuha yan eh', 'aba! anong klaseng math ba tinuturo sa inyo at ganito ang grade mo?'! nakakapikon na kasi, na sa lahat ng ginagawa ko hindi man lang ako makatanggap ng puri sa kanila! sa lahat ng tao, kaya naman hindi ako nagtitino eh! linisin ko kwarto ko, dudumihan ng napakabait kong kapatid, hindi papansinin! pag naman ako nagparumi sa kwarto ko, walang tigil sa kakapagalit sakin! ilang linggo na kasi akong nagtitimpi, pero sobra na talaga yung sinabi nya kahapon... nasa MOA kasi kami kahapon.. kasama ko ang mabait kong ate at nanay, ang tita at pinsan ko... naglalakad kami kung saan-saan para maghanap ng mabibili. pabiro akong nag-inis-inisan kasi hinahanapan ng sapatos at blouse pang-defense si ate, tinatamad naman kasi akong maghanap ng ipapabili ko. tapos sumagot din naman ng pabiro si ate, 'ikaw nga mag-la la salle e'... big deal kasi samin ang la salle, syempre ang taas kasi ng tuition... although pabiro naman, sobra na kasi na araw-araw kong naririnig to 'wag ka mag-alala, hindi rin naman sya papasa dun eh'! tama bang biro yan?! sa harap ng tita at pinsan ko! palagi nalang kasi ang labas, BOBO ako, si ate matalino! si ate pinag-Philippine Science HS, pero ako kaya lang naman ako pinag-aral sa SJA kasi dun lumipat si ate eh.... si ate pinag-exam sa UP, pero ako nung tinanong ko kung mag-eexam din ako dun... tumawa lang ang nanay ko! nakakapikon na kasi na tingin sa kin ng mga tao dito BOBO ako! HINDI NAMAN AKO BOBO! nakakatulig na rin na sa tuwing i-coconfirm ko kay mama kung mag-aapply na ako sa la salle, ang sagot niya 'pano kung hindi ka pumasa?'... at sa tuwing makakakita ng nursing na studyante ang mama ko, hindi nya papalagpasing sabihin 'eto kasi bobo eh, nagshiftshift pa! ang tanga tanga! kung tinuloy niya na yan, dapat (isang taon na lang) magreretire na ko eh!'
SINO BA KASING NAGSABI NA GUSTO KONG MAGNURSING?! SINO BANG NAMILIT NA MAG-ARAL AKO SA SAN JUAN?! UMPISA PALANG SINASABI KO NANG GUSTO KONG MAGLASALLE TAPOS NGAYON SISISIHIN NIYO KO KUNG BAKIT HIRAP AKONG MAGTRANSFER DUN!? PUTANG-INA! PALIBHASA KASI PURO MGA DIKTADOR KAYO! PURO KAYO TAMA! MASYADO KASI KAYONG MAGAGALING!

GREEN NA GREEN NA KO!

2007-10-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

finally! go na go na ko sa la salle! poproblemahin ko nalang kung matatanggap ako! woohoo! please please please pray that i get accepted.. please???

to: Lasallians

2007-10-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

to all the Lasallians out there who know me, I am DESPERATELY TRYING to get into La Salle... help?
here's why I'm having troubles getting into the university:

San Juan De Dios Educational Foundation Incorporated (college)
***nursing
- 1st yr (1st sem, 2nd sem & summer)
- 2nd yr (1st sem)

Adamson University
***nursing-->compsci
- 1st yr (2nd sem, summer)
- 1ST YR! (1st sem)

DLSU - Taft
***compsci --> compsci (with Specialization in Software technology)
- unknown (3rd term..) ??????????

my mom says the only way she'd let me study there was if i got a scholarship.. DLSU-taft offers only financial assistance to those whose annual income are less than 500,00... i can't get the academic(?) scholarship because i'm an irregular student (imagine, this is going to be the third college i'm going to enter - if ever)

grades are not a problem... i have no failing marks

is it really that expensive? like how much do you have to pay for every term, let's say if you have a full load...

a little help here please?

2007-10-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

i DESPERATELY WANT TO STUDY IN DE LA SALLE UNIVERSITY - Taft, and i need your help! if you could just help me in praying that i'd be granted a scholarship there.. my mum won't let me go there unless i get discounts, and i know she won't let me join the varsity team.. i really really want to study there! i just recently got my grades for the last semester and my lowest is 1.5.. that is good, right?? what's bugging me is that there might not be an applicable scholarship grant for me... i do hope there is one, for transferees and hopeless irregularly-enrolled students! hmph! so please, can you just pray for me...? i know it would help me a lot! tnx

freakin' n00b!

2007-10-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

the other week, i bought a sony psp, the slim and lite version and 'til now i am such a freakin' noob! i still haven't got a clue about the upgrade-downgrade stuff... homebrews and brick thingies... i tried to look them up at wikipedia, and when i got to the page about bricks, i decided otherwise - it was all too much, mind you i easily get bored with long-sitting reads! i tried to put themes, games and other stuff i downloaded and failed! i could only make photos and mp3s work! argh! i am so frustrated! i want to do so many things with my new game but i'm scared that i might get it bricked (i think this is how the word 'brick' is used).

right now i've got a couple of mp3s and photos on my psp..
a couple of games:
~~tales of the world~~
grand theft auto: vice city stories
tekken 5: dark resurrection
sims 2: pets
need for speed: carbon

i want to customize my psp into something that really suits me, if you know anything that would be best for my game, please contact me. i have a 3.60 M33 software
and oh yeah... don't tell me to buy those crystal cases, bags and other physical accessories, i already have them

can't wait to plug this thing on TV, the freakin AV cables aren't available yet! i wonder when they'll arrive

iBELIEVE

2007-10-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

I won't be posting updates on my bithday after all. It was too good that I couldn't think of words that would best suit to describe it. It would have been even better too if I got to spend it with ALL of my friends... anyways... 'a picture speaks a thousand words', i'll let the pictures speak for themselves...

GA:

THE FINALE...

Birthday

2007-10-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

Very Late Post...
Coming Soon.

Graphics Artist

2007-09-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

kalokohan

2007-09-16T12:21:00.000+08:00

1.ano tawag sayo sa classroom?
- jane.

2.year and section mo?
- 1st year! irreg

3.sino unang teacher na pumapasok sa
classroom niyo?
- mam navarro

4.sino pinakamaingay sa classroom niyo?
- ung mga lalakeng kaklase q s itf and itc... ung matatanda! haha!

5.sino ang pinakatahimik?
- aba't siempre ako!

6.sino ang palaging gumagawa ng mga
- ako din!

7.sino naman ang palaging walang assignment?
- lahat except ako.. lol!

8.sino ang teacher na palaging nagagalit sa inyo?
- wala..

9.sino ang palaging kumakain pag class hours?
- wala... puro kami irreg.. laging busog.. madaming vacant time pra kumain

10.sino pinaka good girl sa class niyo?
- ako!

11.sino pinakamatalino?
- ako din! lol

12.sino ang "teacher's pet" sa class niyo?
- 'jane paalala mo skin tung flash drive ko ha', 'jane turuan mo nga yan nito', 'jane may d ba ung url nung site?' haha!

13.sino ang mahilig mag volunteer?
- ung matatanda! haha!

14.magaling kumanta sa class niyo?
- di ko alam

15.sino naman pinakamagaling sumayaw?
- di ko alam

16.sino ang mahilig magpatawa sa class niyo?
- ung matatanda

17.sino madalas pinapagalitan sa class niyo?
- ung matatanda rin

18.sino heartthrob sa class nio?
- di ko alam ung pangalan nung kaklase kong pwede nang keychain s sobrang liit! lol

19.sino pinakaepal sa class niyo?
- panelo!

20.sino pinakamabait?
- meron ba?!

21.sino pinakaclose mo sa class?
- itc... cla sheila; tapos s itf... c alvin tiaka c francis

22.sino laging lumilipat ng upuan?
- ung mga matatanda

23.sino nakaupo sa pinakalikod ng classroom?
- ung mga matatanda

24.sino naman nakaupo sa harap?
- madalas kami nila sheila

25.sino seatmate mo?
- depende..
itc: jenny
itf: alvin/francis
phil. lit: nvm
coe: madel/jhoanne

26.ilan lockers sa classroom niyo?
- wala

27.ano locker no. mo?
- wala

28.ilan drawer ng teacher's table
- wala

29.sino mahilig magbura ng blackboard?
- wala.. patigasan

30.sino class president niyo?
- wala

31.anong position mo s class officers?
- wala

32.sino pinaka astig pumorma sa class
niyo?
- c rakistang keychain

33.sino pinakamahilig maglambingan sa
klase?
- buti nga wala aqng nakikitang gnun eh

34.sino pinaka artistic sa class niyo?
- ako! lol

35.sinong teacher ang may favorite sa
class niyo?
- hehe... tawa nalang :D

36.favorite class pastime?
- magcut

37.sino palagi mong kadaldalan?
- shiela, jeri, jenny, karla; francis, alvin

38.sino kasabay mo pag breaktime?
- ara, jane, alvin, jd, francis, paulo, kitek, ralph liit, ralph laki, allen, bryan, jyro, karla... tambay sa canteen

39.masaya ka ba sa kanila?
- yes... no dull moments

40.sino ang crush mo sa classroom?
- sauce

2007-08-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

panibagong tag
in the 8 facts about (name) you share 8 things that your readers don't know about you. then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. each blogger must post these rules first.
♥ each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
♥ bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
♥ at the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
♥ don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. badminton: i'm good at smashing, pretty darn actually.. (self-proclaimed) hehe!
2. i have had more than 25 cellphones since 2000... lol! 90% - stolen
3. when i lie down on my bed (at night), it takes me more than 3 hours to get to sleep...
4. i'm big and look brute pero super iyakin ako...
5. dlwng beses na kong nakakagat ng hornet (tlgang sinearch ko pa kung hornet tlga ung nakakagat sakin) habang natutulog sa parehong parte ng braso ko... naalimpungatan.. tapos umiyak na naman tapos tinawag ko daddy ko sa baba ng pasigaw kasi hindi ako makatayo kasi nakatambay parin sa braso ko yung pesteng hornet na un.. pinalo ng daddy ko ulit sa braso ko yung hornet (yuck).. hindi namatay... tpos hinampas palayo ng daddy ko sakin.. tiaka tinirada nung mga palo nyang minsan ay ginamit nya samin ng ate ko nung bata kami....
uniang beses akong nakagat habang natutulog nung summer.. tapos yung pangalawang beses, kagabi lang.... mala-deja vu
6. i'm a sucker for sappy foreign movies.. pero i don't like seeing sappy stuff in real life... see my other blog (messages) for some relevant posts to this one
7. kinakanta ko ang "Sugar We're Going Down" nang paganito.. we're goin down down duriruriruday sugah wi goi dow swingi! (parang may sipon) lol! hindi ko maintindihan eh... ayoko magsearch ng lyrics kc mas naaliw ako sa lyrics ko
8. I can only kill roaches if their backs are turned on me (backstabber?!)

wala akong tinatag.. at nasagutan na nila to dati... diba..?!

was a good day

2007-08-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

was halfway to school when mum called me up. she said that classes were cancelled because of the storm. i decided to hang around first before going home so ofcourse where else would i have gone to but San Juan De Dios Educational Foundation Incorporated (College) --phew!-- was trying to look for my sister but instead saw my step father (not really)... he and i and a couple of my former classmates - "ella grace illejay", jash, erin, tel - went to moa.. hmm.. we separated just as we arrived
at the mall, i with kuya bugoy, ella with the rest of the gang...

bugoy + jenta + quantum = - money :((
still was worth it! meet my new wangan cards!

next stop.. Country Style... wasn't too eventful though

not much happened today, but it was still great.. i missed this guy so much, and now that i saw him again, i miss him even more

and by the way, i got a new haircut and colored my hair RED....

to 'st. paul' or not to 'st. paul'

2007-08-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

that is the question

survey still

2007-08-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

1. TALKED TO A BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
yes

2. LEARNED ANYTHING NEW?
learned a lot actually

3. TALKED TO AN EX?
n/a??

4. MISS SOMEONE?
yes

5. LAID IN YOUR BED?
by laid, u mean?

6. MADE YOU CRY?
made you cry what?

7. YOU WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH?
mum

8. MALL WITH?
"jd-jd ikaw ba yan jd?"

9. WHO MADE YOU LAUGH?
mah hommies! lol! ehwness!

10. SAID THEY LOVE YOU?
T_T

*general stuffs*

11. FAVORITE LOCATION?
walang bola.. somewhere na nakikita ko ung patak ng ulan.. just love the sight of rain c=

12. WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF?
losing him completely.. really

13. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
hope so

14. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
hope so

15. DO YOU LIKE BEING AROUND PEOPLE?
love it

16. HAVE YOU CRIED RECENTLY?
yes... bad thing

17. ARE YOU LONELY RIGHT NOW?
very

18. SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
"...we need our milo today..." =D

20. EVER LIKED SOMEONE WHO TREATED YOU LIKE CRAP?
not really

21. WHAT COLOR SHIRT DO YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW?
white

22. NAME THREE THINGS THAT YOU ARE DOING?
photoshop-ing, blogging, singing "...we need our milo today..." (crap!)

23. HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?
150 T_T

24. ARE YOU BORED?
no

25. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SHOW?
my wife and kids

26. WHO GOT YOU TO JOIN FRIENDSTER?
HS friends

27. WISH SOMEONE WAS NEXT TO YOU IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
yes T_T

28. WHAT WEB SITE DO YOU VISIT THE MOST?
friendster, multiply, blogger, google and yahoo

29. DO YOU HAVE PLANTS IN YOUR ROOM?
my room is a jungle minus the plants and trees.. lots of animals though! lol! :D

30. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO HUG YOU?
auhw! napaisip ako tuloy.. tagal na akong hindi nahu-hug T_T

*21 secrets*

1.WHAT IS YOUR SHOUTOUT ABOUT?
my friendster shoutout currently says: POST A SHOUTOUT TO YOUR PROFILE
Yahoo 360: it's about me not being able to lie to myself

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN?
Friendster: SM Manila
Multiply: Bus

3. WHAT IS YOUR MUSIC/VIDEOS ABOUT?
music, wasted time

4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
yes. love those moments

5. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
halfway to being depressed

6. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION?
my Yonex NanoSpeed9000!

8. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
join my HS's varsity team

9. IF YOU MUST BE A THING FOR ONE DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
a 300C Chrysler

10. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
wala pa naman

11. WHATS THE NAME OF THE SONG THATS STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
"...we need our milo today..."

12. WHO DID YOU COPY AND PASTE THIS FROM?
my sister

13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
yes

14. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
if his body is bigger than mine! really! lol

16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOW?
YES!

19. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
err... yes??

20. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW?
yes

21. WHAT HURTS YOU RIGHT NOW?
alam naman ata ng lahat e. lol

Jane-ness

2007-08-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

1. Your name plus "ness"?
Janeness

2. Two feelings at the moment?
i'm feeling lonely and unwanted

3. What are you listening to right now?
i just can't live a lie - carrie underwood

4. Done anything you regret so far this week?
used up all my money in the arcade

5. Describe where you are right now?
one super "deformed" room

6.The highlight of your week?
getting to spend more time with my new close friend "JD-JD, ikaw ba yan JD?"

7. What are you craving to have right now?
"one venti caramel machiatto for jane"

8. Who were the last people you ate with?
mum

9. What are you scared of?
completely losing him...

10. Last movie you watched?
ratatouille

11. Last song you sang out loud?
"...we need our Milo today..." shiyet!

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
yes

14. Who is the last person you talked to?
"jd-jd ikaw ba yan jd?"

15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
heaven is a 57 metallic gray mp3

16. Have you changed much this year?
i think so

18. Do you like moms?
...

19. Hug or kiss?
kiss

23. Who was the last person to text you?
rainer

24. Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
sm manila

25. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
tss...

26. Do you speak any other language other than english?
yes??

27. Last thing you watched on TV?
DAY OFF! lol! QTV.. iba na talaga pag walang cable! shiyet!

28. Do you dress for style or comfort?
both

29. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
i can give you ten

30. Whats the craziest thing you've done lately?
rap XD

31. Favorite color(s)?
black AND green.. white

32. What's your favorite cereal character?
koko! hehe!

33. What is your favorite Michael Jackson song?
Thriller and Ben

34. Who do you love?
.....

35. Any plans right now?
i plan on finishing all the things i need to draw by tomorrow

36. What are your plans for tonight?
have a nice long sleep

37. What are you looking forward for tomorrow?
a text message from him

38. Last time you smiled?
i almost always smile!

but wait there's more

2007-07-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

right now, i'm enrolled in only five subjects. that's why i don't mind the extra load that i will be taking with the new organization i'm going to join. it's the au computer science web development team. i'll be a graphic artist and writer at the same time. it's probably going to be hard for me because i'm the only one who is just starting off with the course, the other members are mostly juniors and seniors - well actually, i take it as a challenge.

kandila

2007-07-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

"...sorry di kita hinabol..."

i've been lying

2007-07-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

for the past few weeks, after the 'jonas-incident', i have been lying to a bunch of friends i have at adamson., the people i usually hang around with the whole day.

sa pagsisinungaling ko nalang natutupad ang pangarap ko... my life just sucks big time! it's really a good thing i have my friends.

so what's this lie all about??

this really sucks... i've been telling them that jonas and i are at good terms right now.. as in, we're really doing GREAT.. things like, us spending most of our time together.. hayz.. i shouldn't have started this lie in the first place.. now, i don't know how to put an end to it. it's getting harder and harder everyday, coz usually this group is usually the one i've been running to recently when i have a problem, being the one i see almost everyday... more problems come my way... like last tuesday i was so devastated when jonas went right past me in san juan... i soooo wanted to tell somebody the next day, but with whom could i have shared it with.. that was a hard day for me, i had to put up a smile so that no one would notice... they knew that the only thing that would shut me up was a problem with jonas.... then came this day... i did the usual tap-carlos-on-the-back-then-go-to-our-place-with-the-rest-of-my-compsci-friends-thingy.. then i went back to my new set of friends to chat.. of course, pulling the whole happy act up... then i went back to carlos.. chat... back to my friends... back to carlos again, that's when he said that he had a chat with jonas yesterday... going to the climax of his story, jonas said that i wasn't saying my hellos to him anymore.. SAY WHAT?! the feeling i had that time was incorrigible.. i wanted to cry but i couldn't coz my friends would see... i so badly wanted to tell somebody.. but i just couldn't...

it just that it felt so good... to be able to say that we ARE 'okay'... that just for a moment, i was happy, even though i knew that none of the things i was saying was true...

my stupid personality

2007-07-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

i would have been alright if you would have just replied to one of my messages.. i sent you another message, it was nothing really.. i was just checkin' up on you... why is it that you can send messages to other people and not me?? i've been refreshing/reloading my page for quite some time now, still wishing that your message is just late.. hoping by some miracle the page would say.. 're: jonas musta ka na?' err..

well, i really shouldn't be blaming you... i'm sorry it's just that sometimes (understatement) i get so caught up with these sudden outbursts of jealousy... sorry.. and sorry too to every single friend of mine who had to endure this grueling thing that IS, sad to say, a part of me

no matter how i try to forget you, i'm still waiting..
still wishing you would want me back..
why is it that where i'm standing right now is such a burden??
hmph
:::...according to shakespeare, it is the green-eyed monster which doth mock the meat it feeds on...:::

yonex nanospeed 9000

2007-07-19T18:28:00.001+08:00

mine!!! ALL-MINE!!!! WOHOO!!!!

i decided to sort of uhm.. help

2007-07-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

i have this friend at adamson who has this addiction with cutting her wrist. I asked her, in my serious voice, if it really made her feel better. she said, it did. she knew that it was a psychological disorder but she kept on insisting how good it felt for her. i told her how disturbing it was for me to see her and her boyfriend having a lot of red marks on their wrists. and i got soooo bugged when i saw him do it... as in LIVE ON ACTION! oh my gosh, i soooo totally went nuts! so before i went home i took the blade from her, with her consent, i think she actually liked the fact that i took it. and i do think too that she won't be doing it for quite a while.. i don't really think i helped that much.. but if our other friends wouldn't do it, who would?? i hate how SOME "emo"s think that the only solution to their problems is through hurting themselves... where's the logic in that... i'm not against "EMO"s ok... i was just saying... but I DO HATE people who pretend to be "EMO"

sick in both ways

2007-07-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

i got sick (still am sick).. went to the doctor last Saturday.. she prescribed me two medicines.. one, she said, would give me nightmares... i knew she was just joking, that she said that because my mom asked her about the email she received about a certain generic name of a drug that had some rather horrifying side effects (my mom believes everything sent to her via email!).. okay okay.. point taken.. if that was the case.. the first night i drank the medicine.. i had a dream/nightmare.. i don't know how to categorize it. it was about the night he 'sort of' asked me to dance with him.. some parts of it really happened, some of them didn't.. though i wish they did.. it was just so.. uhm, sweet... it made me think, most of my dreams really did show of my deepest desires... fantasies that i knew had only one chance out of a hundred to happen..

T_T

2007-07-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to keep those words from you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

i decided to answer this here.. marami kasing nakakabasa sa friendster & multiply eh

2007-07-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

1. WHAT'S THE BEST LOVE STORY YOU'VE EVER WATCHED?
** i can't choose which is better between Reese Witherspoon's Just Like Heaven & If Only starring Jennifer Love Hewitt
2. DO YOU THINK YOU'RE OKAY?
** sometimes i'm ok.. most of the time, i'm not
3. SONG PLAYING AT THE MOMENT
** anywhere - evanescence
4. ONE SONG DESCRIBE YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP
** starts with goodbye - carrie underwood.. super ouch!
5. ACCESSORIES YOU USUALLY WEAR
** my thumb ring, my watch (got used to nursing) & a bracelet
6. FAVORITE COLORS
** green & black
7. EVER DONATED BLOOD?
** not YET...
8. LAST PLACE YOU WENT TO
** mall of asia
9. THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH
** mum, ate, tita nor, bjork & tito dex
10. WHAT'S THE MOST EXCITING SPORT?
** BADMINTON!
11. PERMANENT TATOO?
** CURRENTLY not planning to have one
12. MOVIE YOU WANT TO WATCH
** dami eh.
13. PIERCINGS?
** ears lang
14. THE MOST ROMANTIC GIFT YOU EVER RECEIVED
** a plastic pencil holder??
15. ACT ON A STAGE
** sort of?????? lupin(remus)! :D
16. EVER BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNING?
** no.. then i would have been a legend by now
17. DANCED WITH YOUR LOVED ONE BEFORE?
** yes... remembering that night hurts so much
18. EVER WISHED YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME?
** one big YES!
19. ONE SONG THAT'S MEANINGFUL TO YOU
** right now? FORGIVE ME by Evanescence
20. THE LAST PERSON YOU MET FOR THE FIRST TIME
** can't remember her name
21. WHAT WILL YOU BE DOING TOMORROW?
** i'd 'probably' be spending time in school
22. EVER THOUGHT OF ROBBING THE BANK?
** i'm not that desperate! :D
23. ONE THING YOU TOTALLY REGRET
** leaving 'a place'
24. DO PEOPLE LIKE YOU?
** i hope so.. i do wish everybody likes me
25. WHAT WAS THE LAST GAME YOU PLAYED?
** sports: badminton; computer games:mythwars
26. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?
** my bottomless and jonas jose

27. The color of your mobile phone?
** silver and black; brown and blue
28. What do you want for your Birthday?
** my own car, a new pc/laptop, ~~NanoSpeed9000racquet (which will totally be mine in a few days!)~~, a new phone (kahit ipa-swap ko pa tong phone ko), a room make over!
29. Who will be your next kiss?
** hopefully.. uhm.. nevermind... too mushy!
30. When was the last time you went to the mall?
** 2 hours ago
31. Are you wearing socks right now?
** haha! kakatanggal ko lang bago tong tanong na to!
32. When was the last time you went out of town?
** last Sunday
33. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
** kanina.. Transformers (finally!)
34. What was the last thing you had to drink?
** COFFEE! :)
35. What clothes are you wearing right now?
** pambahay lang :D
36. What was your last purchase?
** a pair of strength training gloves
37. What was the Last food you ate?
** fish & chips, calamares @ fish & co.
38. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
** usu. anyone from bottomless
39. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?Where?
** are my gloves considered clothing items? sm mla
40. Do you have a pet?
** no :( ayaw ni mama
41. What was the last sporting event you saw?
** badminton tournament dito lang samin
42. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
** LONDON!
43. What is the last thing you purchased online?
** RAM for my pc
44. One thing you hate about yourself?
** one thing?? one thing lang?!
45. What's your favorite soup?
** nakalimutan ko na ung tawag.. pero gusto ko ung sa Racks na parang mushroom soup na may bread
46. Do you miss anyone?
** badly
47. Last play you saw?
** vamos a belen! :D
48. What are your plans for the day?
** eat, drink, sleep
49. Last person you msg'd?
** alo?? c alo ata s friendster...
50. Ever went to camp?
** yep.. patrol leader ako nun!! hehe! lakas kasi ng boses ko!
51. Are you an honor roll student in school?
** asa naman!
52. What do you know about the (your) future?
** not a clue.. it'll probably suck
53. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
** nope.. nag-wear off na
54. Where are your best friends now?
** i don't know.. nasa bahay or nasa gimmickan?? hehe! ako lang naman ang hindi nakaka-alis ng bahay eh! :D
55. What grade are you in?
** MUWAHAHAHA! FIRST YEAR COLLEGE! dapat third year na ko! (HINDI MAHINA ANG UTAK KO! mahina kasi loob ko eh! wakokok! damn you nursing! pero promise hindi dahil sa grades yan ah! defensive??)
56. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
** ...
57. Who was the last person who made you cry?
** jonas luna jose.. buong buo!
58. What makes you smile?
** usu. the thought of having great friends around me
59. How do you like your soda?
** the brain-freezing kind of cold!
60. Do you like hot sauce?
** nope.. i'm not so into spicy whatchamacallits
61. Do you like to eat balot??
** kung pinagbabalat ako ng mum ko.. pero usu. naman ung sabaw lang gusto ko

good thing there came the 6th of July

2007-07-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

i just had a good time, that's why i'm posting this... i love spending time with these people... they gave me a couple of sermons (which were totally alright, for that matter) about you-know-who... cut classes... ate at OUR PLACE, Pizza Hut... that was the best part! eating with them for the first time at the place where we were formed.. i wasn't there before so i had to edit the picture to put me in it(is it hard to understand??)... anyways.. 'was all good.. all good!

BIG TIME MEAL #3

pepperoni pizza, bread, spaghetti and pepsi.. all for only 198
this was SUPPOSED TO BE A MEAL FOR TWO... but my lyn & khenn thought otherwise so they "SHARED" the meal with me and myjel! :D **i really wanted a bendy straw for my pepsi!

'step away' from the pepsi..
back off! it's mine!
don't make me use my temper on you!

"Now wheeere did i put that?"
NASAN ANG PERA KO?!

haha! not really.. anu b ginagawa ko nito? sino kumuha nito! shiyet!

MEDYO ADIK ADIK NA!

nakakaaliw talaga ang friendster horoscopes

2007-07-07T09:31:00.000+08:00

Friendster Horoscope for July 7, 2007

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

The Bottom Line

A friend is all about their romance now, but they'll have time for you soon.

In Detail

That friend who just started a new relationship has gone missing in action -- their life right now is completely about their romantic relationship, and they expect you to deal with it. Before you get all indignant about being overlooked, put yourself in their shoes. Give them more time to get over this phase -- they will! Support them, and show them that all you want for them is happiness. You're not the type of friend who keeps track of the hours others put in.

my parents should have named me 'hope' not 'jane ericka'

2007-07-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

i am still not letting go! there are still some things i can hold on to, and i won't let those feint sparks of hope disappear on me..

"we are not after the results, we are after the solutions that would give us meaningful results"

Friendster Horoscope for July 1, 2007

2007-07-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

The Bottom Line

Why are you so preoccupied with looking back at your past? Turn and face front.

In Detail

Why are you so preoccupied with looking back at your past, when your future holds so much promise?! There you are, wasting your time wondering whatever happened to that lost love -- while a potential new love is practically right in front of you, flapping their arms wildly in an attempt to get your attention! Turn and face front. Look at where you are going, not where you have been. The view is a lot more pleasant, and the possibilities are much more exciting!

good things

2007-06-30T09:44:00.000+08:00

just because most of my posts have been sort of disturbing, doesn't mean that nothing good has happened to me lately...

last June 15, I was with Miki Jamal... i decided to go to SM MLA where she said she was... i was supposed to be having classes that time, but i thought to myself that it wasn't everyday that miki was 'allowed' to go out.. she wasn't really permitted to go there, i think.. for the whole 3 hours we spent time together, we only had one picture taken of ourselves... picture taken: 1635

yesterday, i didn't have a boring day either... am i psychic or what?! with a recurrent feeling for the whole week that i would see julius, i did see him yesterday.. we rode on the same crosswind - i think - on the way to school..in the afternoon, i decided to go to SM MLA for my two- hour break.. i had a feeling (AGAIN!) that i would see osonnie there.. i was checkin everybody out.. i really felt i was going to see here there, and i did! kewl! awesome! maybe i'm a distant relative of trelawney or something.. anyways! picture taken: 1740

the starbucks outlet in sm mla is ALMOST open! they've got the signage up i could see the inside was all furnished already through some creases of the linings covering the glass windows of the place. oohh! can't wait!

If you're life was a movie, what would your soundtrack be?

So, here's how it works: 1. Open your library 2. Put it on shuffle. 3. Press play. 4. For every question, type the song that's playing. 5. When you go to a new question, press the next button. 6. Don't lie and pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits: turn back time - aqua
Waking up: breakfast at tiffany's - deep blue something (ang galing! :D)
first day of school: don't go breakin my heart - jesse mcCartney (??)
falling in love: sinta - sugarfree (christmas!? - close enough)
fight song: gettin' on the step - kenny G (wow! bg music tlga!)
breaking up: can't take my eyes off you - lauren hill (ouch nmn tlga!)
prom: shoulda, woulda, doulda - beverly knight (shoulda, woulda, coulda tlga!)
life's just okay: entire MOZZART album! wow naman!
mental breakdown: you give love a bad name - blake lewis
driving: FLY! - celine dion
flashback: how to be dead - snow patrol.. flashback?!
getting back together: girlfriend - kamikazee (hayyz... ang sakit naman nitong part na toh)
birth of child: breakdown - maria carey feat. bone thugz (dapat eto dun sa knina)
wedding: toss the feathers - the corrs
finale battle: i'll make love to you - boyz ii men (nye!)
death scene: hey ho, let's go! - the ramones
funeral song: collide - howie day
end credits: my worst fear - rascal flatts (end credits?!)
eating: Two Princes - Spin Doctors (tut tut toot, tut turoot turoot!)
shower: don't matter - akon
bath: shake! - yin yang twins feat. pitbull (??)
car chase: everything my heart desires - mandy moore (??!!)
while having sex: pop goes my heart - hugh grant (wahahaha!)
emo scene: hopeful - twist feat. faith evans (ayan ang dapat sa mga emo!)
sleeping: sway - pcd (Sleeeeeping?!)
crying: breathing - yellowcard
during class: god must have spent a little more time on you - nsync (huh!?)
while fixing up: spongebob squarepants theme song!!!!! :D
goodbye: while you loved me - rascal flatts (hayyzz...tama na'ng pag-e-emote!)
song for hugs: dear friend - stacie orrico (anu ba yan?! T_T)
song for kisses: your guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus (sweet T_T)

the truth doesn't always set a person free

2007-06-28T19:26:00.000+08:00

i am simply.. broken

need i say more

espero respuesta de u esta

2007-06-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

¿ui.. piel del glit k b o sumthin.. soy siempre. ndi en línea del bt k del nagoonline k. del nkikita q pag. nagrereply?? piel gling del ano del khit del ng del mkrinig del nang del mu del ayw del qng del aq del nlng del mu del kakalungkot nmn..dretchuhin...

¡la sensación que dije era una vez que todavía HAYA en mi corazón, él no ha cambiado un pedacito. u no puede imaginarse cómo me he estado sintiendo por los últimos 3 o 4 años... y mis amigos (sí! mis amigos de HS. u sabe) me dicen moverse encendido, solamente coz de i can't.. que deseo oír que las palabras que hace daño de u 1r b4 yo hagan cualquier cosa impetuoso

¿es u apenas inintencionalmente msgs abiertos del ur 4getting 2 o es ésta realmente manera del ur de decir adiós a mí? soy el askin justo u para decirme la verdad. de modo que QUIZÁ, apenas pueda encenderme quizá con mi vida... y finalmente parar el contar con del sumthin que nunca va a suceder en millón de cursos de la vida

¿u desea saber qué sucedió detrás en el san juan? alrededor ese vez u me pidió b4 d ma's sportsfest si era enojado en u o el sumthin, ese tym que stormed abajo del paso juan u del ryt de las escaleras de la batalla y los amigos del ur... oí una ' rumor ' a partir de la 1 de mi classm8s que u cortejaba some1 de la clase del ur. aceptable que era razón verdadera de d conseguí. el bcoz no justo enojado conseguía celoso de sus amigos nuevamente encontrados. ¿Así pues, era que el afterall verdadero de la ' rumor '? ¿y usted ahora tiene sum1 especial en ryt particular? .. desear 2 saben

espero respuesta de u ésta

non penso lo ami, affatto.

2007-06-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

=(

**this IS my new post...

it's just not that easy

2007-06-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

a couple of months ago, i mentioned something about posting some rather undisturbing entries here in my blog instead of those wretched negativities that surround me... obviously i didn't get to do it because of a recurring problem i've been having with jonas... i'm not saying that i will be posting good posts now just because i've mentioned it.. i'm just saying that i haven't forgotten about that post but i can't make it happen because of a single problem that has been taking over me for the past five years.

i now know the truth

2007-06-23T12:58:00.000+08:00

and it hurts so much it might just kill me

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2007-06-19T23:01:00.001+08:00

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kung fu hustle

2007-06-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

sa hindi ko alam na dahilan, wala kaming cable for almost a week na... almost a week of my dad trying hard to tolerate the insufferable TV shows of the local channels **he loathes pinoy actors & actresses, well i do too*** there was even this one show 'Love Spell', i think, when my mom pointed out to me an actor playing a gay(? - i'm not sure, parang naging babae DAW ata siya dun sa palabas) role as Deither Ocampo, and my dad quickly corrected her, "Deither?! Si Jericho yan...". We were sooooo surprised! Yes, my dad really does have that fast-learning-easy-memorizing type of brain - but when it comes to Pinoy Showbiz?! NEVAH! so i'll give him props for that instance! anyways.. i just wanted to type in that part....

back to kung fu hustle... as i have said, we recently have been watching shows from GMA and ABS-CBN, QTV and Studio 23 (ayos na sana toh eh)... last night, my dad decided to watch GMA... Daddy-DiDoDu, a show starring Vic Sotto.. then Kung Fu Hustle... I've heard some comments/reviews about this show saying that it was corny and exagerated....

the exagerated part, i had to admit was true.. although i really don't think it was boring... the fight scenes had really good graphics although they were exagerated - but it was really good! there were lots of twists to the story, pretty good ones at that matter! two stars for the looks of the actors and actresses (i don't really like chinky-eyed looks).

what i'm trying to say here is that i liked the movie.. though i didn't get to finish the movie! argh! dad was drunk again and kept on repeating in his harsh voice that we SHOULD get to sleep... and we'd know better than to disobey him when he's drunk..

who's got a cd/dvd of this movie? can i PLEASE borrow yours.. i don't have those cards for Video City and all those other renting shops.. so can i pleaseeeee just borrow yours?

My name poll

2007-06-17T12:19:00.000+08:00

FEELING KINUKUNAN

2007-06-17T08:04:00.000+08:00

THE VIDEO THAT NEVER FAILS TO AMUSE ME & MY HS FRIENDS

**jan paul & james at their best!**

featuring the angelic voices of Jopher Atanacio & Richelle Canoza

my first step...

2007-06-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

70% (that's 7 out of the ten who voted - it's sort of sad that some of the people i pm'd didn't vote) of the votes say that i should forget about him... well then.. i took the first step.. i sent him a message on friendster.. i can't meet up with him, he won't give me a chance to do so.. he's always 'not around' or 'too busy'..

why the sudden move?

i saw him go online and once again, he didn't reply to ANY of my previous messageS

i posted the message on my 'message blog' if you wanna see it

sched

2007-06-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

..medyo nadagdagan na..

- Wednesday - Friday::

11:00 - 12:00 ITC Lab (1st yr)
1:00 - 2:00 ITF Lab (1st yr)
3:00 - 4:00 Philippine Literature (2nd yr)
6:00 - 7:00 Code of Ethics (4th yr)

::Tuesday::

11:00 - 12:00 ITC Lec (1st yr)
1:00 - 2:00 ITF Lec (1st yr)

::Thursday::

9:00 - 11:00 PE 3: Badminton (2nd yr)
11:00 - 12:00 ITC Lec (1st yr)
1:00 - 2:00 ITF Lec (1st yr)

all those nose-bleeding days finally paid off

2007-06-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

got my first 20 dollars from my ninong, who's Camille, Karen & Paul's dad... + free food from their resto
the next one came from my ninang, Tita Aida.. mother to three beautiful blue-eyed angels! + a starbucks bonanza
a MotoRazr from my sister's ninong's wife.. it isn't brand new but still oh-so-worth-taking-care-of-their-two-kids! :D tita jen btw is the head nurse of a hospital in Texas.. she once had a sports car then a bmw! when tito noel (her husband/ my dad's brother) asks us to buy a 1.5L Coke/Pepsi, he would usually give 500 Pesos, then not ask for the change! how sweet is that?!
tita ruth has already used up so much on us going to the arcade! let me see... race - punching bag - race - guitars - race - quick shot / long range - punching bag - mini bowling - punching bag - hockey - the turning aviation thingy - starbucks break! haha! - punching bag, et. al?!
more to come! :D mwahaha!
++ $30

cancelled

2007-06-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

june 9, 2007

~~date with my gym buddies~~, mam kate's despedida

june 10, 2007

~~jonas' birthday~~ (at home: early morning) -->
~~jonas' birthday~~ (at home: 2 or 3 pm) -->
~~jonas' birthday~~ (at sm sucat: 12nn) **no way i'm goin there! not with her
~~get-together at lyn's house~~ **a lot of things are bugging me right now, wanna figure things out with other people (don't get me wrong, i need to figure things out with people who are attached to him)
~~dinner~~ in parañaque **no thank you
~~pay Popo (that lovely labrador pup!) a visit~~ **dad used the car

andre ian & justin.. there usual selves :D

2007-06-10T17:56:00.000+08:00

i am one of those who do not believe in heaven anymore

2007-06-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

I used to believe in heaven, back when I was still in elementary. My granma would tell me stories of seeing the picture of the angel on her bed, his/her (they say that angels have no gender) eyes moving as it silently watches over me & my sister. Then she would also say that the image of Mama Mary sometimes smiled on her. Those stories were so relieving, knowing that at night when I would get scared, I would cry but I would stop when I would put into mind that Papa Jesus (as i used to call Him) would be beside me on bed with His arms around me. Then came those times, that I sooo wanted to speak to Him, for no apparent reason at all. I just wanted to chat. It broke my heart that He wouldn't slip into my dream or something. Then came Highschool, things started to turn on me. My life was forever changed, small problems built up that I started having doubts in you don't want to know what.

Right now, I DO believe in God but not in heaven.

Death: I think that when people die, the only place they stay is on the memories of the ones they left behind, that's it, they remain just a mere thought of what they once were. I don't believe in souls. How could people even say that there actually IS a soul. Can they say that they knew it from experience, that they once died and was just reincarnated back into the world? I don't believe those kind of stuff.

this is just my point of view.. no haters please

ay caramba! stupido!

2007-06-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

QUE PASA??
PAG POST KO NUNG BLOG ENTRY NA UN.. AUN OH, SA BABA.. YAN YAN, YANG 'WHAT DO I DO?'
NAKALIMUTAN KONG NAKA-AUTO POST PALA AKO SA MULTIPLY.. SO LAHAT NG BAGONG POST KO DITO..
DERETCHO POST DIN DUN SA MULTIPLY! ARGH! STUPIDA! ANYWAYS! MEDYO NAAGAPAN KO NAMAN DAHIL BUTI NALANG BAWAT MINUTO ATA CHINECHECK KO LAHAT NG ACCOUNTS KO! WHEW! PERO MADAMI-DAMI DIN ANG NAKA-VIEW NUN!

what do i do?!

2007-06-04T17:58:00.000+08:00

his sister is inviting me for lunch (and dinner maybe) on his birthday! on the 10th
and..
she's inviting me for her daughter's birthday too! on july 28
that means i have to see him again
i didn't say 'no', but i didn't say 'yes' either
it sounds like she's insisting me to go there.. shoot!

second tagalog post.. shiyet! pengeng tissue!

2007-05-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

nung dumating ang mga pinsan ko hindi na natapos ang kaka-english ko! sakit kaya sa ulo! pangatlong araw na nila ngayon dito. at grabe na ang pagdurugo ng ilong ko!

nung unang araw, wala pa akong ka-warm up warm up, aba, nagpagawa ng website ang isang pinsan ko.. ayos lang sana, bigla ba namang pina-explain! hindi pa nga ako nagiinit eh, pinapahirapan na ako agad! dinaya ko nalang yung dalawa, ginawan ko nang mabilisang 'website' sa multiply.. kung gusto niyo sila makita, nasa kaliwa(?) - left, hehe! - yung link ng multiply ko... yung isa ang pangalan Christian tapos yung isa naman Justin tapos parehong De los Reyes... baka lang naman gusto niyo silang imessage.. :D ayos naman nung mag-gagabi na.. nakatulog na si justin, tapos ginawa ko kay Ian/Christian binagalan ko yung pagdownload namin nung MythWars sa pagdadownload ng iba pang malalaking files para makatulog na rin siya sa antok.. ayun! success naman!

ang hirap pa naman dun sa isa medyo mahina magsalita, kaya ako naman oo nalang ng oo sa kanya.. kaya kahapon nung um-oo ako sa kanya nagtaka sya... yun pala tinatanong nya ko kung kaninong kama daw yung hinihigaan nya.. fine fine! namimiss ko na rin ang tagalog! hehe!

kahapon pa pala pumunta yung dalawa sa isa ko pang tito na halos kapitbahay lang namin, andun sila naglalaro ng PS3/2 ewan ko ba kung anung play station meron sila dun.. sabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko 'ayos to ah! libre sa english ngayon! woohoo!'.. nabati tuloy! pumunta sila dito, para dito samin kumain... ayos naman.. umalis si Ian, si Justin naman nagpaiwan sakin (naman! :D).. nakatulog na ulit si Justin sa kama ko.. whew! tapos ba't ba sa lahat ng bagay pumayag akong makipagchat kay Ian kahit nasa kabilang bahay lang siya?! argh! ayon! hindi nakuntento sa pag-type.. tumawag pa! hehe!

inaabangan ko nga ang pagdating ni Andre.. yun naman ingglisero din pero ang maganda sa kanya nakakaintindi ng tagalog.. dati nga ang purpose nya samin translator.. sige.. pag napagod na talaga ako, gagamitin ko ulit sya... :D hehe!

miss ko na tong mga pinsan ko na toh..
buti nga hindi kasama lahat nung mga pinsan ko eh.. iniisip ko palang namumutla na ko eh... 9 yung nasa states na mga tito't tita ko.. sa isang tito/tita, may tatlo-pataas na bilang ng anak! shiyet! tama na po! okay pa sana kung sa kakaenglish ko eh nangangayayat ako, ay nako! ako pa mismo pupunta dun sa states! hehe!

nice pic.. :)

2007-05-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

welcome home

2007-05-24T13:14:00.000+08:00

i don't know what time they'll be arriving but they're definitely comin' home today.. well, that is if 'huwebes' IS a 'thursday'.. sorry! i still don't know the difference between 'huwebes' & 'miyerkules'! hehe! wohohoah! i'll be readying my pockets and my bags cause definitely there'd be a lot of things comin! ohh! show me the green ones! mwahahaha! and the signatured bags and clothes! oh yeah baby! wahaha! i should ready my brain too, cause there's goin to be a lot of english speaking nights again! i'll be taking up that texan accent again, but that's alright.. i really missed those guys! welcome home 'panet' (this is supposed to be "panget")!

2007-05-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

blake totally blew it! argh! wrong choice of songs ang he didn't really have to do 'you give love a bad name' all over again.. i mean the first time he sang it, it was great... but hearing it for the second time, i don't think so.. jordin sang an aguilera song which didn't turn out quite well, but i did love her last song.. grr! still am cheering for blake, but i don't think he's going to win anyways :D

------------------------UPDATE------------------

blake lost to jordin... that's alright! hehe! i still think he's hot... the new american idol, jordin sparks!

horoscope

2007-05-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

the weird thing about friendster - horoscope..
it always seems to say the right things at the right time..

like this one i have today..

The bottom line
"You should never hold a grudge long enough to get used to how heavy it is. Let go."

In detail
You should never hold a grudge long enough to become accustomed to its weight. It's time you realized that your feelings of anger are hurting you much more than they're hurting their object. Embrace forgiveness today, and understand that you can't control how other people choose to live their lives. Any slights or rude behavior should roll right off your back. Blaming other people for how they make you feel isn't healthy. Just smile, take a deep breath, and let it go.

yeah yeah.. i don't really believe these kinds of stuff, it's just intruiging really
and if it is true, should i really let go?

hiwa

2007-05-22T16:53:00.000+08:00

nagbubukas ako ng luncheon meat.. ung de-pihit.. habang kausap ko si eunice lozada.. aba! naputol ung pangpihit! grr! so binabaan ko na muna si eunice, kasi gutom na gutom na talaga ako! eh di yun na, tinry ko buksan nung can opener kaso ang hirap kasi rectangle ung dulo.. una natamaan ako nung medyo bukas na na part... okay lang kasi naman maliit lang... tapos na tusok naman ako... ang tanong, ng ano? ewan! tapos eh di nanggigigil na ko sa gutom, naglabas na ko ng kutchilyo! shiyet! nahiwa naman ako nang malalim.. as in yuckie sa lalim nung hiwa! agos eh! grabe! :D sumisigaw ako kay ate, 'ate ate dugo!' hindi ako pinansin so inakyat ko yung tumutulong daliri ko sa kwarto tas pinagalitan nya ko kasi daw bat inakyat ko pa yun! nilagyan nya ng walang kamatayang betadine.. tpos 'ban-eyd'.. ayun.. gutom parin ako.. ginawa ko na naman ung kanin na nilalagay ko sa lyanera ng leche flan tapos lalagyan ko ng queso tapos itu-'turbo' ko kasabay nung kung anumang ulam ang gusto ko, sa ngayon, yun ngang luncheon meat.. hindi na nga pala ako nagpiprito kasi takot ako sa talsik ng mantika! nasugatan na nga ako ng tatlong beses, magpapatalsik pa ba ako ng mantika?! chubra ka naman!

~~galit pa din ako sa'yo! kahit ganito na post ko..~~

p*tangina!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

3 hours ago lang sya nagonline.. tpos 2 weeks ago ung last n check nya.. tpos nkpagmessage n q s knya.. dlwang PM, isang comment.. wla reply. tpos eto pah.. =(

eto pamatay...

weng.. tessa.. lyn.. richelle.. eunice... sheena.. lht ng nkkarelate skin.. kita nmn tau PLEASE.. nkaglobe aq txt niu nmn aq...

a message for no one

2007-05-18T20:17:00.001+08:00

after all the things you put me through, i still can't bring myself to hate you. that's why i'm havin doubts if this feeling i have for you is love or obsession. i tell my 'in-lust friend' (see weng's blog)to stop forcing herself to do things for her guy just to make him like her as much as she does. i tell her, that a guy with that attitude and that kind of lifestyle is not worth it. Her other friends tell her that too, she just doesn't listen. And she keeps on getting hurt... then i ask myself, if this is the situation i'm in too. but.. i know that you're not like him. you're nice, you have not a single vice.. and we even like the same things. we play the same sport, we spent so much time together which were almost all for a good purpose. the only mistake here is that you don't like me the way you used to.

are you trying to avoid me? actually, i know you are. do you know that you're the only person who has ever made me like this, the only person who has ever made me make a fool of myself. how could you possibly have had this kind of effect on me when you've given me nothing really special.. not even in your actions... do you know that i kept the gift that you gave me on Dec2005. do you even remember you gave me one? coz i figured you would have forgotten all about it, judging by the looks of it, you gave me that gift because you felt you were obliged to do so. you should be dear! after all the things i've done for you?! that gift wasn't even meant for me, was it? the text on the wrapper read 'irene', then you erased it with an almost out-of-ink felt tip pen. what was inside was actually more insulting, what the heck were you thinkin when you gave me that 'gift', supposedly for irene? pretty special? eh? a pink pencil holder made of a low quality plastic, some of the decorations were even half torn off! - the kind of thing you buy in public markets if you intend to give it as a gift to your classmate for kris kringle back when you were still on elementary.

you said you couldn't go to that single game we had yesterday, to that game i so tried hard to go to coz i thought you were goin to be there.. i tried to reach you, through your numbers, jervis' phone, your classmates.. you didn't even bother to send me ONE reply! noooo! you had to send a message saying you couldn't go to someone else.. i was even excited coz i was really really hoping to have a message in my inbox that read your name.. then you said you still had classes? really? yesterday?! you had classes?! i was at school yesterday too! i was there in the morning before i went to class and i was there before lunch! you didn't have classes! you liar!

what amuses me here is that i'm so tired of all your excuses, of all your favors and all of your bull... but still i don't hate you.. and i still do l*ve you