I thought that I was over him already

yes, i am talking about jonas when i say that i thought that i was over him already... this really sucks for me you know? i even tried to pull the switching-sim card trick on him so that everytime he would put his sun, i'd place my globe and the other way around.. and hopefully he'd forget about me too... and now here's the awful part. i think, no - i KNOW, i'm the one who's desperate about him.. i told myself awful things about him and convinced my friends (i don't know why i did that) that he was a jerk... but when i come to think of it... didn't i turn out to be the jerk in the end? it's just that, it kept on occuring in my mind that he didn't really pay attention to me.... all i ever really got from him was that 'text message' telling me about his feelings... that's it, nothing more... so i tried to force myself to hate him... but I JUST CAN'T... help... please, for my friends who could relate to this matter.. please, i really need help i just can't ask of it from you directly... you know how i get when i confront people directly....


(no time to edit this thing.... PUBLISH)