i am one of those who do not believe in heaven anymore

I used to believe in heaven, back when I was still in elementary. My granma would tell me stories of seeing the picture of the angel on her bed, his/her (they say that angels have no gender) eyes moving as it silently watches over me & my sister. Then she would also say that the image of Mama Mary sometimes smiled on her. Those stories were so relieving, knowing that at night when I would get scared, I would cry but I would stop when I would put into mind that Papa Jesus (as i used to call Him) would be beside me on bed with His arms around me. Then came those times, that I sooo wanted to speak to Him, for no apparent reason at all. I just wanted to chat. It broke my heart that He wouldn't slip into my dream or something. Then came Highschool, things started to turn on me. My life was forever changed, small problems built up that I started having doubts in you don't want to know what.

Right now, I DO believe in God but not in heaven.

Death: I think that when people die, the only place they stay is on the memories of the ones they left behind, that's it, they remain just a mere thought of what they once were. I don't believe in souls. How could people even say that there actually IS a soul. Can they say that they knew it from experience, that they once died and was just reincarnated back into the world? I don't believe those kind of stuff.

this is just my point of view.. no haters please