it's just not that easy

a couple of months ago, i mentioned something about posting some rather undisturbing entries here in my blog instead of those wretched negativities that surround me... obviously i didn't get to do it because of a recurring problem i've been having with jonas... i'm not saying that i will be posting good posts now just because i've mentioned it.. i'm just saying that i haven't forgotten about that post but i can't make it happen because of a single problem that has been taking over me for the past five years.