Thanks, by the way

I would like to express my ever sincerest gratitude to the people who have never appreciated the things I have done for them. To those, who saw me every time they needed something from me. To the people who only knew I existed whenever they wanted something they knew I could provide. To the friends whom I never got a simple 'thank you' from, from the smallest favors to the most hefty demands they asked of me - instead, I received only snide remarks and foul criticism. To all those who got angry at me whenever I had to say 'no' because I had no other choice. Thank you also to those who continually require me to do things for them that are of their most interest.

And now I ask of simple requests, so simple that they wouldn't even take half an hour of their time. I asked a lot of them, I received nothing, not even one.

The feeling is back again, I guess.

Taken for granted - this is what most people call it.

It's a shame that I didn't recognize it earlier. I have been a victim of this back in highschool. Back then, I would let a certain guy sweet-talk me into providing for him small things. I am now, once again, a victim.

Maybe it's just the feeling of being wanted that makes me ignore all of these issues. That even for a short while, people need me - in this case, my resources. And I wouldn't even give a damn if it would cost me much, just so that I can make them pleased at me.

Thank you.