it's not easy being me you know.....

if we switched places.. if we switched lives.. you would understand how hard it is for me to be with you guys... i AM trying hard to go out of this wretched house, I AM! but you know i have to set my priorities straight... i don't have money for college, i can't suffice myself with anything actually and YOU KNOW THAT.. please... just listen... i do try... i'm sorry if it's not enough... i love you and miss guys and i would do all that i "CAN" just to see you again...