my low self-esteem

it made me curious why i never wondered why i have such a low self-esteem...
let me give myself a couple of probable answers:

i studied in st. joseph's academy
-where all the people are better than me.
-where total humiliation was done to many.. in which i was one of those who gave host to it...

i met jonas luna jose... go figure out why this is listed here....

my parents...
they don't really give me much support for my aces...
i excell in badminton - they do not like the idea of me training for it
i do well with english - they wouldn't give me a chance to prove myself to the journalism world
**they are not really to blame.. afterall they are the reasons why i am not in the streets right now.... but i just really do hope they'd give me a chance... i would have proven myself with these... i would have been very interested with my life.. especially my life right now